In the absence of Himself, I have concluded the arrangements for an
actual possession of this house, which we have taken for a term of three
years. No more leaseholds for me in this country, and though a casually
rented house gives one an odd feeling of insecurity—anything may happen
in three years. There will have to be a little papering and painting
done, just to make it clean and wholesome, and then I will bring back my
poor sticks from the repairing shops, and group them in this strange new
setting. It is really quite a nice house, with some points the other
lacked. A great advantage when one has a depleted staff is a kitchen on
the ground floor. It is a thoroughly bad kitchen, dark and gloomy, and
the hot water arrangements, and facilities for cooking are positively
the worst I, an experienced housewife, have ever encountered. If I had
not two specimens of the salt of the earth in these regions beyond, the
situation would be impossible. They are quite selfless, as far as their
own comfort and accommodations are concerned. They think only of us.
Such personal devotion takes the edge off many sorrows.
Already I have a scheme which perhaps in the far future will convert
this house into a real home. How ineradicable is the instinct to
reconstruct in the human breast! That it cannot be killed has been
incontestably proved by the persistence with which our poor French and
Belgian confrères creep back to their ravaged fatherland and begin
again.
Himself builded better than he knew when he began to talk of
reconstructing the moment the shock was over. He is always
distressingly right in the fundamentals, and our small internal wars
have invariably been caused by my refusal to admit it. But life is not
all fundamental, Cornelia, it needs camouflage, needs it desperately.
All women know it.
There are gleams of glory. The finest is the love of the people for my
lover. A poor woman rushed up to me to-day to ask the latest news of
him. From her I learned that they call him "The Friend of the Poor."
If I were to die to-morrow, Cornelia, I could ask no sweeter epitaph.
I have decided that the house is not bad at all, and I am beginning to
sit up and take a little notice. Only I must not look out of the back
windows.
You remember the enchanting vistas spread before the green bedroom, and
the study window around the corner. There was no fret of the spirit
that could not be healed and comforted, always there was beauty to lift
you up, and a message, no matter how bleak the prospect elsewhere. It
was that dear intimate kind of a garden where there was something for
every mood.
Doctor Horton once came to dine and sleep when speaking at a meeting
here, and at six next morning he was out roaming about, to the disquiet
of the staff. He had visions of a hermit’s study cell in the ruined
tower by the waterfall, and wondered why I did not establish a writing
room out of doors.
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