An episode in the doings of the dualizedMason, Eveleen Laura
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An episode in the doings of the dualized
Mason, Eveleen Laura
Aphasia -- Fiction; Paralysis -- Fiction
“Do I care that I can’t put the rose together again? I don’t aspire to
do that; yet I do very much care to have all the power I can possibly
obtain with which to arrest the destruction of beautiful life and
orderly happiness.”
“Oh, yes, much you care to make a fellow happy,” said Reginald sullenly.
“Look at the cold-blooded way you sat there and talked to that miserable
thing about me.” And after waiting again, he said with the combativeness
of a man opposed by silence, when instead he longed for a quarrel: “Now
this is all very well, Miss Daksha, but you know that if you
noticed—noticed—well, as you might say—if you smelt whiskey on her (now
you’ve got it), if you smelt whiskey on her, you could—you are sharp
enough to notice—anything, in fact,” said he, stumbling on under her
steady uplifted eyes, “Aren’t you?”
“I notice many things,” said Ethelbert, like a little truthful child.
He hit the rosebush again. “You are a queer girl,” he said. “You have no
respect for a man’s feelings.”
“What are those things?”
“What things?”
“A man’s feelings, I believe you called them,” said Ethelbert.
He came near her, with red passion-flushes patching his face like
Satan’s finger-prints; and stood angrily looking at her. And then he
slashed the air close to her with his cane; but he might as well have
shot glances of rage at a lily-cup, in the hope of arresting the sweet
aura it exhaled. He turned angrily away. “Well, I can just believe you,”
he said. “You neither know nor care what feelings are. You care more
about that old rose.”
“That depends,” said Ethelbert. “I care for the rose because it is
sweet, orderly life. If a man’s feelings are the same, I care just as
much for them. But character is not a question of feeling. It is a
question of wise action.”
He muttered a passionate oath, and hit the bush again. For the devils
were “rending him,” and “that kind goeth not out, except by prayer and
fasting.” He was not much of a praying man; and as for fasting, his
habitual diet and incessant brandy quaffing did not come under that
head, nor produce those calming results. Added to this, three months had
passed since Ethelbert Daksha had seemed to him as no woman had ever
seemed to him before; and in those three months he had been afraid to
approach acquaintanceship, because of the infinite distance between
them. This distance he, with all his unpublished record of
demoralization, had decency enough to recognize. And now he had a
feeling akin to hatred toward Ethelbert, that she should have the
impudence to know anything of him except what his “good clothes,” not
bad-featured face, and his hitherto very silent tongue might have told.
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