He saw his old friend's face quiver a little as the strange word struck
her: oddly, it seemed to silence her. But it was not possible that she
could be one half so struck with that word as he, Charles Garrott, was.
_Mary Wing was a Womanly Woman_.... And now she could no more have
stopped his speech than she could have stopped a river when the one gate
in the dam, long locked, has suddenly burst open.
"That's it. Of course.... Funny, I was just thinking over all that as I
walked around here--how different those things are. No, not
different--they don't belong in the same story at all. What's character
got to do with--feathers in the springtime?... Born stupid," said
Charles, in a low, stirred voice--"that seems to explain me. I'd better
have been one-eyed--beat me over the head with it, and still I can't
see.... Won't see. That's it!--it's worse. I'm just an old-line
male--that's what. Just the sort who've taught women not to bother to
try to be womanly when being feminine comes so much cheaper. Why, look
at me, criticizing you in my thoughts, not liking it because you
were--independent. What was that but just pique--don't you know?--just
common ordinary male jealousy--because a woman didn't need my shoulder
to lean on. Manly protector ... seventeenth-century stuff. Well, you've
punished me, don't you worry.... Just standing where you always stood,
just being your Self. Acting straight from your own law all the time,
doing the best sort of things, one after the other--the biggest,
the--the _tenderest_--"
"Don't," said the grammar-school teacher again, but in the littlest
voice he had ever heard from her lips.
Rapt as he was, that voice penetrated him. More, it alarmed him: and
with reason, too. Staring down with a new fixedness, touched with a
faint, purely masculine horror, Charles beheld the strangest sight seen
by him in many a day. Mary Wing, the unconquerable, had suddenly put her
face into her hands.
He had really only been finishing that other talk of theirs, with a
certain sense of right; but of course this wasn't the time for that. He
had been indulging his analytic propensity, his fatal tendency to
comment, at her expense. Hadn't he understood that she feared nothing
so much as his sympathies?...
His friend, in her arresting attitude, sat as rigid as a carven woman.
The stillness in the little office was profound. Then a voice strained
out, very thin, but still not defeated:--
"Don't be alarmed. I'm ... not going to cry."
And that seemed to settle it. It was as if, in that silent struggle
waged all the way from the Flowers' to now, the speaking of the word
itself was the fatal admission. The school-teacher had no sooner
pronounced it than her arms spread suddenly out on the table before her,
and her head came down upon them.
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