They sat down side by side opposite him. Wilfred’s breast was in a
commotion. His confusion must have affected the other two, for they were
silent at first. Undoubtedly they thought him a churl, who hugged his
solitude. He could not bring himself to look at them. He was bitterly
upbraiding himself. You fool! What a poor figure you are cutting! Why
can’t you be natural? These are simple, likable fellows, willing to be
friends. They are your kind. What a chance! And you’re throwing it away!
You won’t get another such chance. This is what comes of dreaming!
Unfits you for the reality. . . .
Their soup was brought; and they hungrily applied themselves to it, with
encomiums upon its flavor. While waiting for their next course, they
picked up a conversation that had evidently been dropped a little while
before. They spoke low; but Wilfred’s sharpened ears heard every word.
“I think you’re foolish,” said Stanny, “after working in the office all
day, to sit in your basement nights, hacking away at your carving. With
a book of Italian verbs open besides you, too. Or if you’re not there,
you’re sitting in Madame Tardieu’s stuffy room, droning French with that
tiresome old soul!”
“She needs the money,” mumbled Jasper. His shy, unsure utterance
endeared him to Wilfred.
“Well, that’s not your fault,” said Stanny, slightly exasperated.
“You’re too easy. She knows she’s got a good thing, and she’s nursing it
along. . . . I say, it’s not natural at our age.”
“What else is there to do, nights?” grumbled Jasper. “We haven’t any
money to spend.”
“Loaf!” said Stanny, promptly. “A certain amount of loafing is necessary
to the soul’s health. You’re doing violence to your nature with this
continual grind. It’ll get back at you some day. This self-improvement
business can be carried too far. How can you improve when you’ve worked
yourself into a half-doped state? . . . I bet you fall asleep in your
chair at Mme. Tardieu’s many’s the night, while the old body drools on.”
“It’s a fact,” confessed Jasper.
While they talked together, ignoring him, Wilfred quieted down. It was
better they should ignore him, he thought; for if, as was probable, they
should not like him, that would be worse. Meanwhile what a glimpse into
their lives he was getting!
“Last night,” said Jasper in his diffident, masculine voice, “I was
sitting in Madame Tardieu’s room. It’s true, I was half asleep. I
happened to look out of the window. . . . In the house opposite, there
was a girl going to bed. She’d forgotten to pull down the shades. . . .
Damn nice-looking girl! When she put up her arms to unpin her hair . . .
lovely round arms . . . such a picture! . . . Well . . . I lost my head.
I said good-night to the old lady in a hurry, and I went . . . I mean I
went across the street. . . .”
“_What!_” exclaimed Stanny.
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