Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; Monks -- Fiction; Portugal -- History -- 1826-1853 -- Fiction; Wine and wine making -- Fiction
It was inevitable that these announcements should generate in the
Council an unmonkish excitement. After having been so long persuaded
that they would live the rest of their lives and die their due deaths
within the same square mile of earth, there was something strangely
fascinating in this sudden unrolling of the map of Europe. The solid
sorrow of their dispossession was almost hidden for the moment under
a whirl and flutter of little arrangements; even as a fatal reef is
hidden under the pretty spray of the rollers it has smashed to
glittering atoms. The buzz of talk which followed on the more formal
speaking was not without the shrill note of schoolboys as they
discuss a thousand plans for an approaching holiday.
The Cellarer who, despite his preoccupation with its temporals, was
one of the community's most spiritually-minded members, swiftly
detected the danger.
"Father Prior," he said loudly, "all have spoken save Father Antonio."
His bright firm voice cut through the dull buzz like an eagle dashing
through starlings, scattering them all in flight. Every monk felt
the just rebuke, and once more there was silence.
"Father Antonio," said the Prior, quietly and kindly.
Antonio felt that he could not speak from his place by the wall. He
rose and advanced with bowed head into the midst of his brethren.
The corn-merchant's tiny candles were flickering down into their
sockets; and he waited a few moments in the hope that darkness might
enveil him before he opened his mouth. But the lights leaped into
fuller brightness. He raised his head. Everywhere he saw eyes,
eyes--old eyes and young eyes, loving eyes and stern eyes, dull eyes
and eager eyes, hopeful eyes and fearful eyes--everywhere eyes, eyes
fixed on him, Antonio, alone.
"Father Prior--" he began. But his prepared words were taken away.
The eyes went on piercing him until he felt like the holy martyr
Sebastian in the midst of the sharp arrows. At last words burst from
him.
"My Fathers, my Brethren," he cried. "Forgive me. To-morrow I am
going back into the world."
One of the lights went out suddenly, as if Antonio's apostasy had
struck it down like a blow. But for five or six seconds no one
stirred or spoke. A second candle-flame leaped up and died away.
Then, in the dimness, uprose a confused murmuring, sharpened here and
there by exclamations of scorn or anger or bitter sorrow. More
distinctly than the rest was heard the garrulous contempt of Father
Bernardo, whose lapses into the sin of gluttony had so often
scandalized the brethren. Father Bernardo's righteous scorn was
sincere. He had no vocation to be a saint or a hero himself; but he
knew that saints and heroes were necessary, and he despised Antonio
for turning his back upon the light.
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