Arminell: A Social Romance, Vol. 3Baring-Gould, S. (Sabine)
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Arminell: A Social Romance, Vol. 3
Baring-Gould, S. (Sabine)
English fiction -- 19th century
Presently he recalled his wife’s deceptions and how his heart had foamed
and leaped at the thought of the wrong done her and himself, and how he
had nourished a deadly hatred against Lord Lamerton on that account. Now
he knew that there had been no occasion for this hatred. What had he
done to his lordship? Had he really with his hand thrust him over the
precipice, or had the nobleman fallen in stepping back to avoid the
blow. Either way the guilt, if guilt there were, rested on Saltren’s
head; but the captain would not listen to the ever welling-up suggestion
that there was guilt. It was not he who had killed his lordship, it was
the hand of God that had slain him, because the hand of human justice
had failed to reach him. The captain entertained little or no personal
fear—he was ready, if it were the will of heaven, to appear before
magistrates and juries; before them he would testify as the apostles had
testified. If it were the will of heaven that he should die on the
gallows, he was ready to ascend the scaffold, sure of receiving the
crown of glory; perhaps the world was not ripe to receive his mission.
When that wave of horror swept over him, no fear of the consequences of
his act helped to chill the wave; his only horrible apprehension was
lest he should have made a mistake. This it was that lowered his
pulsation, turned his lips blue, and made a cloud come between him and
the landscape. He fought against the doubt, battled with it as against a
temptation of the Evil One, but as often as he overcame it, it returned.
The discovery that he had been deceived by Marianne into believing that
Lord Lamerton had injured him, was the little rift in his hitherto
unbroken all-enveloping faith; but even now he had no doubt about the
vision, but only as to its purport. That he had seen and heard all that
he professed to have seen and heard—that he believed still, but he
feared and quaked with apprehension lest he should have misread his
revelation.
It is not easy, rather is it impossible, for a man of education,
surrounded as he has been from infancy by ten thousand influences to
which the inferior classes are not subjected, to understand the
self-delusion of such a man.
The critical, sceptical spirit is developed in this century among the
cultured classes at an early age, and the child of the present day
begins with a _Dubito_ not with a _Credo_. Where there is no conviction
there can be no enthusiasm, for enthusiasm is the flame that dances
about the glowing coals of belief; and where no fire is, there can be no
flame. We allow of any amount of professions, but not of conviction.
Zeal is as much a mark of bad breeding as a hoarse guffaw.
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