Hélène shook her head, and, blushing with the recollection of the
indignity put upon her, added:
"Do not believe it. At such a solemn time, I neither wish to deceive
you, nor ought to do so. The wound is incurable; never, no, never, shall
I forget that once you suspected me of being vile."
"Yes, yes! you will forget it, Hélène, and I know in the depths of my
heart that the future will be as happy as the past."
"I shall never forget it, I tell you," said Hélène, with her habitual
firmness. "So reflect upon what you are about to do. There is still
time; nothing binds you, except your honour. You can still refuse me
what I have required you to do; but do not believe that I shall ever
change. I tell you that for all the remainder of my life my heart is
separated from yours by a dreadful abyss."
"Believe it then, be it so," said I to Hélène, for I felt reassured by
the promptings of all my former tenderness. "Believe it if you must!
What does it matter to me? But your hand,--but the right to make you
forget all the misery that I was the cause of, this is what I claim,
this what I desire, what I accept, what I beg of you on my knees."
"You really wish this?" said Hélène, fixing a penetrating look on me,
and seeming for a moment to hesitate.
"I implore it of you as I desire my eternal salvation; I beg it of you
as my life's only destiny! Ah," said I, with the tears in my eyes, "I
beg it of you with as much religious fervour as though I were asking it
of God."
"Then it shall be so; I grant you my hand," said Hélène, as she turned
away her eyes to hide the first sign of emotion she had exhibited since
the beginning of our interview.
I was the happiest of men. I knew too well Hélène's susceptibility not
to have expected all these reproaches. Her heart had been so cruelly
stricken that the wound would remain for a long time open and bleeding.
I knew that it would take many days, many years of tender and delicate
care to heal this wound; but I felt so certain of my love, so happy in
my belief in the future, that I had no doubt as to my success. Noble and
loyal as I knew Hélène to be, her promise showed me that, though she
still felt resentment, she had not lost all esteem for me; that she had
read my secret thoughts, and was persuaded that, in expressing the
horrid thought which had so grievously distressed her, I had only been
the involuntary echo of my father's pessimistic maxims.
We soon after started for the city of ----, where Hélène and her
mother had always lived.
Our marriage, which was announced with certain formality, was set for a
date in the near future, for I had besought Hélène to hasten the happy
moment as much as the exigencies of the necessary publicity would allow.
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