He laughed in a way that was strange to me. There was a note of joy in
it. It was a boy’s laugh, and Brand had gone beyond boyhood in the war.
I saw one or two of the Germans look up at him curiously, and then stare
at the girl, not in a friendly way. She was unconscious of their gaze,
though a wave of colour swept her face. For a second she laid her hand
on Brand’s brown fist, and it was a quick caress.
“Our friendship is good!” she said.
She spoke these words very softly, in almost a whisper, but I heard them
in spite of the rattle of the tram-car and the gutteral argument of two
Germans next to me. Those were the only words I heard her say on that
journey to Bonn, and after that Brand talked very little, and then only
commonplace remarks about the time and the scenery. But what I had heard
was revealing, and I was disturbed, for Brand’s sake.
His eyes met mine as I passed out of the car, but they were unseeing
eyes. He stared straight through me to some vision beyond. He gave his
hand to Elsa von Kreuzenach, and they walked slowly up from the station
and then went inside the cathedral. I had business in Bonn with officers
at our headquarters in the hotel “Der Goldene Stern.” Afterwards I had
lunch with them, and then, with one, went to Beethoven’s house--a little
shrine in which the spirit of the master still lives, with his old
instruments, his manuscript sheets of music, and many relics of his life
and work.
It was at about four o’clock in the afternoon that I saw Brand and the
German girl again. There was a beautiful dusk in the gardens beyond the
University, with a ruddy glow through the trees when the sun went down,
and then a purple twilight. Some German boys were playing leapfrog
there, watched by British soldiers, and townsfolk passed on their way
home. I strolled the length of the gardens, and at the end which is
near the old front of the University buildings I saw Brand and Elsa von
Kreuzenach together on a wooden seat. It was almost dark where they sat
under the trees, but I knew Brand by his figure and by the tilt of
his field-cap, and the girl by the white fur round her neck. They were
holding hands like lovers in a London park, and when I passed them I
heard Brand speak.
“I suppose this was meant to be. Fate leads us...”
When I went back to Cologne by tram that evening I wondered whether
Brand would confide his secret to me. We had been so much together
during the last phase of the war and had talked so much in intimate
friendship that I guessed he would come one day and let me know this new
adventure of his soul.
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