She put Johnstone's letter down by the other, but Berwick left them
lying there; he still looked at her with a probing, suspicious look, and
she began to be desperately afraid. At Santa Maria she had once met a
miserable white man, the overseer of a neighbouring plantation, who was
said to have suddenly gone "fantee"--so had that man looked at her, as
Berwick was doing now, dumbly. Was this what he had meant when he had
spoken to her in the carriage of ungovernable impulses--of actions of
which he had afterwards felt bitterly ashamed?
Very slowly, still looking at her, he at last took up the two letters.
Then, with a sudden movement, and without having looked at it, he put
Boringdon's back on the ledge of the prie-dieu. "No," he said roughly,
"not that one--I do not think he ought to write to you, but no matter!"
Barbara felt herself trembling. She was beginning to understand.
Berwick's hands fingered nervously the West Indian letter; at last he
held it out to her, still folded, in his hand. "Here it is--take it--I
won't read it!"
"Oh! but do," she said. "It is from Mr. Johnstone, saying that he has
received the money you so kindly arranged to send back for me."
But Barbara's words came too late.
"Mr. Johnstone?" Berwick repeated the name, then laughed harshly. "Fool
that I was not to think of him! But all to-day, since McGregor gave me
that letter, I have been in hell. Of course you know what I
believed"--Barbara's lips quivered, and her look of suffering ought to
have disarmed the man who was staring at her so insistently, but he
was still possessed by a jealous devil. "Tell me"--and, leaning over
the prie-dieu, he grasped her hands--"We may as well have it out now.
Do you hear from him--from your husband, I mean? Do you write to
him--sometimes?"
She shook her head, and Berwick, at last free to see the agony and
surrender in the face into which he was looking down, and to which he
suddenly felt his lips so near, was swept by an irresistible rush and
mingling of feelings--remorse and fierce relief, shame and exultant joy.
"I think we ought to go downstairs,"--Arabella's clear voice broke into
and echoed through the silent room.
Berwick straightened himself slowly. Before releasing Barbara's hands he
kissed first one and then the other. As he did so, passion seemed to
melt into tenderness. How fragile, how childish he had thought the
fingers resting on his arm that first evening of their acquaintance! He
remembered also the fluttering, the trembling of her ringless left hand
when for a moment he had covered it with his own during that drive from
Halnakeham to Chillingworth, when he had made so much--or was it so
little?--of his opportunity.
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