The two walked down the gallery, towards O'Flaherty, who was still
standing by the wood fire, and Arabella, who was putting out the candles
with the rather disdainful thoroughness and care she gave to small
household matters. Lord Bosworth's servants were old, like himself, and
grew unmindful of their duties.
Berwick suddenly left Mrs. Rebell's side, but not till he had reached
the door did he turn round and say, "I am not coming down, for I have
work to do, so good-night!" A moment after, he was gone, with no more
formal leave-taking.
* * * * *
That night Barbara cried herself to sleep, but to her tears brought no
relief--rather an added shame for the weakness which made them flow so
bitterly. She felt overwhelmed by a great calamity--face to face with a
situation out of which she must herself, unaided, find an issue.
She had asked so little of the shattered broken life which remained to
her--only quietude and the placid enjoyment of a friendship which had
come to her unsought, and in which there could be no danger, whatever
Madame Sampiero or Mrs. Turke might think. Did not the feeling which
bound her to James Berwick enjoy the tacit approval of such a woman as
was Arabella Berwick? What else had made Miss Berwick say to her, as she
had done, that her brother could never marry? Surely the words had been
uttered with intention, to show Mrs. Rebell how desirable it was that he
should have--friends?
Till to-night, love, to Barbara Rebell, had borne but two faces. The
one, that of the radiant shadow-like figure, half cupid half angel, of
her childhood and girlhood, was he who had played his happy part in the
love affair of her father and mother, binding them the one to the other
as she, Barbara, had seen them bound. It was this love--noble, selfless,
unmaterial in its essence, or so she had thought--that lighted up Madame
Sampiero's face when she spoke, as she sometimes did speak, in the same
quivering breath, of Lord Bosworth and her little Julia.
Love's other face, that which she shuddered to know existed, had been
revealed to her by Pedro Rebell. It was base, sensual, cunning,
volatile, inconstant in its very essence, and yet, as Barbara knew, love
after all--capable, for a fleeting moment, of ennobling those under its
influence. Such, for instance, was love as understood by the coloured
people, among whom she had spent these last years of her life, and with
whose elementary joys and sorrows she had perforce sympathised.
Now, to-night, she realised that love could come in yet a third
guise--nay, for the first time she saw that perhaps this was the only
true love of them all, and that her first vision of the passion had been
but its shadow. Some such feeling as that which now, she felt with
terror, possessed her body as well as her soul, must have made her
mother cling as she had clung, in no joyless way, to sombre, disgraced
Richard Rebell.
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