England -- Fiction; Families -- Fiction; Farms -- Fiction; Older men -- Fiction
She happened to be upstairs when the fiddle struck up, and in the
cool of the evening she leaned out to hark. Through the windows below
she caught the jollity of the reel, the thin cry of the strings and
the stamp of feet on the flags. In the room behind her where the
great four-posters were, the shadows were creeping and climbing and
laying the draperies of the night. There were always shadows within
the curtains of the beds, as if they had come for those who had lain
there dead, and had never had time to lift and scatter away. With
the night there were the shadows of night as well, so that in shadow
on shadow those who slept in the beds must lie. On the house itself
there was shadow, the mighty shadow of the fells, and suddenly she
longed for a room on the edge of things, looking starkly out to sea.
There, in the night, one could always breathe, at least. She leaned
further until the roses came up about her face, and then she saw
Thomas standing by the pens.
At once, as she looked, the veil of her long bewilderment fell away.
Now she knew what she wanted, what she meant to do. The wind of that
longing for air and space had swept the cloudy room of her mind, and
there, with his face to herself and his back to the sea, Thomas was
all that the sudden wind had left.... He moved, as if meaning to go,
and almost in panic she turned and ran from the room, flying through
twisting passages and over the sagging floors. Shafts of light rayed
across her from deep-cut window-slits; polished oak doors gleamed at
her back as she sped down the bowed and winding stairs. The flood of
music and dance swelled up to her as she approached, and she paused
for a moment as she passed the room. After the soft purples out of
doors which the sun was leaving behind, the room seemed misty and
full of a golden dusk, yellow with lamps resisting the dying day.
High in the wall the sawing arm that held the bow flung the wild
music over the crowd, whirling figures and brown faces and gowns that
made streaks of colours under the lights. The mist and the music and
the beat of the feet made her head spin as she stood and looked. Her
face and gown were framed by the door and the dark behind, and a
partner began to edge towards her round the crowd. He was still some
distance away when he saw her disappear, like a ghost caught away
from the door by hidden hands. Again the longing for space had seized
her as she looked. She slid round the door and fled to Thomas in the
yard.
They were well on their way to her home before either found anything
to say; and then, “What made you quit so soon?” she enquired with a
rush at last.
He answered her, staring gloomily at the road, that the place was
overcrowded by a deal. He wasn’t as set on dancing as he used.
“Likely I’m getting old,” he added; “that’ll be it.” And then, after
minutes and minutes he let himself go.... “I couldn’t abide hearing
yon fiddle played.’Twas fiddle as fetched me out, if you want to
know.”
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