American fiction -- 20th century; Bohemianism -- Fiction
With the inquisitive grin of one who is quite convinced that he is an
embryonic monster, he arose at five o’clock on the next morning, stole
into the bedroom of his sleeping parents, pilfered fifteen dollars from
the trousers of his father, and took the train to a distant city, where
he enlisted in the United States Army. He had first intended to do this
at the nearest recruiting station, but with the triumphant shrewdness
of a budding knave he decided that if he joined the army in another
city he could more easily escape being arrested for his theft. He had
robbed his parents with an actually quivering delight, feeling that
it was the first gesture of his attack upon an unresponsive world.
In joining the army he had not been lured by the recruiting poster’s
gaudy lies concerning “adventure, travel, and recreation,” but his
reasons were more practical and involved. He longed for the stimulus
of a physical motion that would not be concerned with the capture of
pennies and he believed that he could be more alone with himself in a
new whirlpool than in the drably protected alcove from which he had
fled. He felt also that if he were going to prey upon the world he must
make haste to learn the tricks and signals of a rogue and pay for this
knowledge with physical pain and weariness.
The details of his army life need not interfere with this quickly
sculptured hint of his birth. He emerged from the lustreless workshop
of the army with the patient bitterness of one whose dreams have become
the blundering slaves of a colorless reality. For some time he wandered
about the country, in a stumbling dance with various kinds of manual
labor--cotton picking, wood chopping, factory work. At intervals he
engaged in little thefts, such as the money from a drunken man’s
pockets, the purses of rooming-house landladies, and articles from the
counters of shops, and used them for a week or two of leisure in which
he wrote of nightingales inebriated with the fragrance of lilac bushes,
or dawn robbing the hills of their favorite shawl.
His role of desultory sneak-thief failed to cause within him the
slightest shame or self-reproach and he felt that his longings were
using trivial weapons in a furtive manner merely to protect a secretly
delicate bravery within him.
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