Blackwood's Edinburgh magazine, Vol. 71, No. 439, May, 1852Various
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Blackwood's Edinburgh magazine, Vol. 71, No. 439, May, 1852
Various
England -- Periodicals; Scotland -- Periodicals
It was most touching to see how the inner character of this man unfolded
itself, as the leaves of the outer character fell off and withered—a
character no one would have guessed in him—an inherent refinement that
was almost womanly; and he had all a woman’s abnegation of self. He took
the cares lavished on him so meekly. As the features of the old man
return in the stillness of death to the aspect of youth—the lines
effaced, the wrinkles gone—so, in seeing Burley now, you saw what he had
been in his spring of promise. But he himself saw only what he had
failed to be—powers squandered—life wasted. “I once beheld,” he said, “a
ship in a storm. It was a cloudy, fitful day, and I could see the ship
with all its masts fighting hard for life and for death. Then came
night, dark as pitch, and I could only guess that the ship fought on.
Towards the dawn the stars grew visible, and once more I saw the ship—it
was a wreck—it went down just as the stars shone forth.”
When he had made that allusion to himself, he sate very still for some
time, then he spread out his wasted hands, and gazed on them, and on his
shrunken limbs. “Good,” said he, laughing low; “these hands were too
large and rude for handling the delicate webs of my own mechanism, and
these strong limbs ran away with me. If I had been a sickly puny fellow,
perhaps my mind would have had fair play. There was too much of brute
body here! Look at this hand now! you can see the light through it!
Good, good!”
Now, that evening, until he had retired to bed, Burley had been
unusually cheerful, and had talked with much of his old eloquence, if
with little of his old humour. Amongst other matters, he had spoken with
considerable interest of some poems and other papers in manuscript which
had been left in the house by a former lodger, and which, the reader may
remember, that Mrs Goodyer had urged him in vain to read, in his last
visit to her cottage. But _then_ he had her husband Jacob to chat with,
and the spirit bottle to finish, and the wild craving for excitement
plucked his thoughts back to his London revels. Now poor Jacob was dead,
and it was not brandy that the sick man drank from the widow’s cruise.
And London lay afar amidst its fogs, like a world resolved back into
nebulæ. So to please his hostess and distract his own solitary thoughts,
he had condescended (just before Leonard found him out) to peruse the
memorials of a life obscure to the world, and new to his own experience
of coarse joys and woes. “I have been making a romance, to amuse myself,
from their contents,” said he. “They may be of use to you, brother
author. I have told Mrs Goodyer to place them in your room. Amongst
those papers is a journal—a woman’s journal; it moved me greatly. A man
gets into another world, strange to him as the orb of Sirius, if he can
transport himself into the centre of a woman’s heart, and see the life
there, so wholly unlike our own. Things of moment to us, to it so
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