Bildungsromans; Blind -- Fiction; Parent and child -- Fiction; Young men -- Fiction
To-morrow June (her name was June) would come to have her poor hand
attended to. She had cut it, and it was poisoned a little, poor little
hand. “Like white mice,” her fingers. They would not be white though,
but hard and a little dirty with work. To-morrow.
To-day Mamma had gone into Norbury in one of her fits of righteous
anger. On the road and in front of the town rubbish heap, just where
you had the best view of the Abbey, the Town Council had allowed a
local man to build a garage, in tin, painted red. Of course, she had
said, there was jobbery in it, and there probably was. So she had gone
to the Dean, and she would be talking to him now. The Dean would boom
sympathy, and he would be tired, poor man, but he would write to the
Town Council. They would do nothing. Poor Ruskin!
Still it was a pity, for the garage spoilt that view. But they had not
tampered with the inside of the church. It was quiet in there as the
country round, and all was simple, and the round pillars were so kind,
and the echoes that blurred everything and so made the words more
grand. The church music went round and round the walls, and then rolled
along the ceiling till the shifting notes built walls about you till
you were yourself very high up, so that you could see.
But Mamma always made one go to Barwood Church, where the service was
out of tune and where there was not even simplicity, for Crayshaw lit
candles and wore vestments. And outside always there were quiet fields
and colour to show you how absurd it was to worship indoors. Crayshaw
had just had another baby, a son, and he had so many. But Mamma said
that they must go to Barwood Church that they might be an example to
the village. So they went, and the few others they met there went to
show that they went and everyone realised that, and so on.
Last Sunday, the first time he had been after going blind, there had
been voices singing in the county accent. Such nice, strong, genuine
voices. But then Crayshaw had spoilt it all by preaching about
blindness in the East, ophthalmia in the Bible, spittle and sight, with
a final outburst against pagans. During the sermon he had fingered his
prayer-book; it was longer and thinner than any of the rest. It had
been presented for his first service in church. And he should have been
sentimental over it; he should have thought how good he had been so
long ago in the nursery, of how he had wanted to be a bishop, and of
how Mabel Palmer had said how nice it would be for the neighbourhood to
own a bishop.
Things were different now. The nursery was gone and the days at Noat,
so full of people, were gone. There were other things instead. There
was so much to find out, and, in a sense, so much to discover for
others, for when one was blind one understood differently. A whole set
of new values had arisen. And being blind did not hurt so long as one
did not try to see in terms of sight what one touched or heard.
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