Brazil -- Social life and customs -- Fiction; Short stories, Brazilian -- Translations into English
As the silence finally terrified me, I opened a window, in the hope of
hearing at least the murmuring of the wind. But no wind was blowing.
The night was peaceful. The stars were sparkling with the indifference
of those who remove their hats before a passing funeral procession and
continue to speak of other things. I remained at the window for some
time, my elbows on the sill, my gaze seeking to penetrate the night,
forcing myself to make a mental summary of my life so that I might
escape the present agony. I believe it was only then that I thought
clearly about the penalty of my crime. I saw myself already being
accused and threatened with dire punishment. From this moment fear
complicated my feeling of remorse. I felt my hair stand on end. A few
minutes later I saw three or four human shapes spying at me from the
terrace, where they seemed to be waiting in ambush; I withdrew; the
shapes vanished into the air; it had been an hallucination.
Before daybreak I bandaged the wounds that I had received in the face.
Then only did I pluck up enough courage to return to the other room.
Twice I started, only to turn back; but it must be done, so I entered.
Even then, I did not at first go to the bed. My legs shook, my heart
pounded. I thought of flight; but that would have been a confession of
the crime.... It was on the contrary very important for me to hide all
traces of it. I approached the bed. I looked at the corpse, with its
widely distended eyes and its mouth gaping, as if uttering the eternal
reproach of the centuries: "Cain, what hast thou done with thy
brother?" I discovered on the neck the marks of my nails; I buttoned
the shirt to the top, and threw the bed-cover up to the dead man's
chin. Then I called a servant and told him that the colonel had died
towards morning; I sent him to notify the vicar and the doctor.
The first idea that came to me was to leave as soon as possible under
the pretext that my brother was ill; and in reality I had received,
several days before, from Rio, a letter telling me that he was not at
all well. But I considered that my immediate departure might arouse
suspicion, and I decided to wait. I laid out the corpse myself, with
the assistance of an old, near-sighted negro. I remained continually in
the room of the dead. I trembled lest something out of the way should
be discovered. I wanted to assure myself that no mistrust could be read
upon the faces of the others; but I did not dare to look any person in
the eye. Everything made me impatient; the going and coming of those
who, on tip-toe crossed the room; their whisperings; the ceremonies and
the prayers of the vicar.... The hour having come, I closed the coffin,
but with trembling hands, so trembling that somebody noticed it and
commented upon it aloud, with pity.
"Poor Procopio! Despite what he has suffered from his master, he is
strongly moved."
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