If at this point of her life Sophy Chantrey could have been removed from
the daily temptations which beset her, most probably she would not have
fallen lower into the degrading sin, which was quickly becoming a habit.
Until her husband's enforced absence, she had been so carefully hedged
in by the numberless small barriers of a girl's sphere, so guided and
managed for by those about her, that it had been hardly possible for any
sore temptation to come near her. But now suddenly cut adrift from her
quiet moorings, she found herself powerless to keep out of the rapid
current which must plunge her into deep misery and vice. There had not
been a doubt in her mind that she was not a real Christian, for she had
freely given a sentimental faith to the Christian dogmas propounded to
her by persons whom she held to be wiser and better than herself. In the
same manner she had taken the customs and usages of modern life, always
feeling satisfied to do what others of her own class and rank did. Even
now, though she was conscious that there was some danger for herself,
she could not realize the half of the peril in which she stood. After
Ann Holland left her she lingered still beside the little grave in a
tranquil but somewhat purposeless reverie. There could be no harm, she
thought, in taking just enough to deliver her from her very worst
moments of depression, or when she had to write cheerfully to her
husband. That was a duty, and she must keep a stricter guard over
herself than she had done lately. She would take exactly what her aunt
Bolton drank, and then she could not go wrong. With this resolution she
gathered a flower from the little grave beside her, and, turning away,
hastened out of the churchyard.
Mr. Warden had scarcely glanced through the vestry window since Mrs.
Bolton had gone away in anger, but he was well aware of Sophy's
lingering beside the grave. He felt crushed and unhappy. His friend
Chantrey had solemnly committed the parish to his care, and he to the
utmost of his power had strenuously fulfilled his duties. But what was
he to do with this new case? Except under strong excitement his
constitutional shyness kept him dumb, and how was he to venture to
expostulate with his friend's wife upon such a subject? It seemed to be
his duty to do something to prevent this lonely and sorrowful girl from
drifting into a commonplace and degrading phase of sin. But how was he
to begin? How could he even hint at such a suspicion? Besides, he could
do nothing to remove her out of temptation. So long as Mrs. Bolton
persisted in her angry refusal to follow his advice, she must be exposed
daily to indulge an appetite which she had not the firmness to resist.
CHAPTER V.
TOWN'S TALK
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