The Senator now chiefly worked alone at the great mahogany writing-desk
in his private office. No one could see him there when he leaned his
head on his hand and brooded, with his eyes closed. But he preferred
it, also, because the hair-splitting pedantries of Herr Marcus had
become unendurable to him. The way the man for ever straightened his
writing-materials and stroked his beard would in itself have driven
Thomas Buddenbrook from his seat in the counting-room. The fussiness of
the old man had increased with the years to a positive mania; but what
made it intolerable to the Senator was the fact that of late he had
begun to notice something of the same sort in himself. He, who had once
so hated all smallness and pettiness, was developing a pedantry which
seemed to him the outgrowth of anybody else’s character rather than his
own.
He was empty within. There was no stimulus, no absorbing task into
which he could throw himself. But his nervous activity, his inability
to be quiet, which was something entirely different from his father’s
natural and permanent fondness for work, had not lessened, but
increased--it had indeed taken the upper hand and become his master.
It was something artificial, a pressure on the nerves, a depressant,
in fact, like the pungent little Russian cigarettes which he was
perpetually smoking. This craving for activity had become a martyrdom;
but it was dissipated in a host of trivialities. He was harassed by a
thousand trifles, most of which had actually to do with the upkeep of
his house and his wardrobe; small matters which he could not keep in
his head, over which he procrastinated out of disgust, and upon which
he spent an utterly disproportionate amount of time and thought.
What outsiders called his vanity had lately increased in a way of
which he was himself ashamed, though he was without the power to shake
off the habits he had formed. Nowadays it was nine o’clock before he
appeared to Herr Wenzel, in his nightshirt, after hours of heavy,
unrefreshing sleep; and quite an hour and a half later before he felt
himself ready and panoplied to begin the day, and could descend to
drink his tea in the first storey. His toilette was a ritual consisting
of a succession of countless details which drove him half mad: from the
cold douche in the bathroom to the last brushing of the last speck of
dust off his coat, and the last pressure of the tongs on his moustache.
But it would have been impossible for him to leave his dressing-room
with the consciousness of having neglected a single one of these
details, for fear he might lose thereby his sense of immaculate
integrity--which, however, would be dissipated in the course of the
next hour and have to be renewed again.
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