Should he wait? Sit down somewhere, perhaps in the smoking-room,
until the lieutenant went, and then go to Gerda and speak out, and
call her to account? Ah, one did not speak out with Gerda, one did
not call her to account. Why should one? Their alliance was based on
mutual consideration, tact, and silence. To become a laughing-stock
before her, too--no, surely he was not called upon to do that. To
play the jealous husband would be to grant that outsiders were right,
to proclaim a scandal, to cry it aloud. Was he jealous? Of whom? Of
what? Alas, no! Jealousy--the word meant action: mistaken, crazy,
wrong action, perhaps, but at least action, energetic, fearless, and
conclusive. No, he only felt a slight anxiety, a harassing worry, over
the whole thing.
He went into his dressing-room and bathed his face with eau-de-cologne.
Then he descended to the music-room, determined to break the silence
there, cost what it would. He laid his hand on the door-knob--but now
the music struck up again with a stormy outburst of sound, and he
shrank back.
One day in such an hour, he was leaning over the balcony of the second
floor, looking down the well of the staircase. Everything was quite
still. Little Johann came out of his room, down the gallery steps, and
across the corridor, on his way to Ida Jungmann’s room. He slipped
along the wall with his book, and would have passed his father with
lowered eyes, and a murmured greeting; but the Senator spoke to him.
“Well, Hanno, and what are you doing?”
“Studying my lessons, Papa. I am going to Ida, to have her hear my
translation--”
“Well, and what do you have to-morrow?”
Hanno, still looking down, made an obvious effort to give a prompt,
alert, and correct answer to the question. He swallowed once and said,
“We have Cornelius Nepos, some accounts to copy, French grammar, the
rivers of North America, German theme-correcting--”
He stopped and felt provoked with himself; he could not remember any
more, and wished he had said _and_ and let his voice fall, it sounded
so abrupt and unfinished. “Nothing else,” he said as decidedly as he
could, without looking up. But his father did not seem to be listening.
He held Hanno’s free hand and played with it absently, unconsciously
fingering the slim fingers.
And then Hanno heard something that had nothing to do with the lessons
at all: his father’s voice, in a tone he had never heard before, low,
distressed, almost imploring: “Hanno--the lieutenant has been more than
two hours with Mamma--”
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