England -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction
This little group was watched by more than one pair of eyes, and with
very varied feelings. The party consisted of Mr. Beresford, Miss Cherry,
and that old friend of the Meredith family, who attended all Mrs.
Meredith’s receptions, Mr. Sommerville. And of all the spectators Mr.
Beresford was perhaps the only one who did not cast a glance and a
thought towards the two young people so distinctly isolating themselves
from the rest in their corner. Mr. Sommerville looked at them with a
sort of chuckle, reflecting that, as the only child of her father, Cara
was no doubt well worth the trouble; and that, at this moment at least,
the idle Oswald was not losing his time. Mrs. Meredith glanced at them
with a soft pride and sympathetic pleasure in what she considered her
son’s happiness; a pleasure unmarred by the thought that her other son
was rendered anything but happy by this spectacle. But the two whose
minds were absorbed by the scene, and who scarcely could even make a
pretence of attending to anything else, were Miss Cherry and Edward
Meredith. Poor Edward sat behind backs with a book in his hand, but he
never turned over the leaf. All that he was capable of seeing for the
moment was his brother’s shoulders, which were turned to him, and which
almost shut out the view of Cara, who was sitting on a little sofa
fitted into a corner, separated entirely from the rest of the party by
Oswald, who sat in front of her, with his back turned to the others,
leaning forward to talk to her. More than the habitual suppressed sense
that his brother was preferred to him in everything was the feeling in
Edward’s mind now. This time he was disappointed as well as wounded.
Edward had been more light-hearted, more self-confident, than he had
ever been known to be in his life before, since the conversation with
Cara which has been recorded in this history. He had thought then that
at last he had found someone who was capable of judging between Oswald
and himself, and of understanding that all the good was not on one side.
When Cara had spoken of the difference between those who talked of
themselves, and those whose minds were open to the troubles of others,
Edward’s heart had danced with sudden pleasure. She had made the
unfailing comparison between them which Edward felt everybody to make,
and she had not thrown herself, as most of the world did (he thought),
entirely on Oswald’s side. Alas, poor Edward! what was he to think now?
He sat and watched with indescribable feelings while this little scene
arranged itself, feeling it intolerable, yet incapable of doing anything
to prevent it. Had her feelings changed, then, or had she only spoken so
to please him, not meaning it; adopting the doubtful practice--very
doubtful, though St. Paul seems to recommend it--of being all things to
all men? Edward suffered sometimes from seeing his mother do this; must
he find the same in _her_ too? The thought was bitter to him. With his
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