The spectacle reminded Will of another, and he lifted his eyes to the
cross on the undulation spread before him. As he did so some object
appeared to flutter out of sight not far above it, among the rocks and
loose 'clatters' beneath the summit of the tor. This incident did not
hold Will's mind, but, prompted to motion, restless, and in the power of
dark thoughts, he wandered up the Moor, tramped through the heather, and
unwittingly passed within a yard of the monument he had raised upon the
hill. He stood a moment and looked at the cross, then cursed and spat
upon it. The action spoke definitely of a mental chaos unexampled in one
who, until that time, had never lacked abundant self-respect. His deed
done, it struck Will Blanchard like a blow; he marvelled bitterly at
himself, he knew such an act was pitiful, and remembered that the brain
responsible for it was his own. Then he clenched his hands and turned
away, and stood and stared out over the world.
A wild, south-west wind blew, and fitful rain-storms sped separately
across the waste. Over the horizon clouds massed darkly, and the
wildernesses spread beneath them were of an inflamed purple. The seat of
the sun was heavily obscured at this moment, and the highest
illumination cast from sky to earth broke from the north. The effect
thus imparted to the scene, though in reality no more than usual,
affected the mind as unnatural, and even sinister in its operation of
unwonted chiaro-oscuro. Presently the sullen clearness of the distance
was swept and softened by a storm. Another, falling some miles nearer,
became superimposed upon it. Immediately the darkness of the horizon
lifted and light generally increased, though every outline of the hills
themselves vanished under falling rain. The turmoil of the clouds
proceeded, and after another squall had passed there followed an aerial
battle amid towers and pinnacles and tottering precipices of sheer
gloom. The centre of illumination wheeled swiftly round to the sun as
the storm travelled north, then a few huge silver spokes of wan sunshine
turned irregularly upon the stone-strewn desert.
Will watched this elemental unrest, and it served to soothe that greater
storm of sorrows and self-condemnation then raging within him. His
nature found consolation here, the cool hand of the Mother touched his
forehead as she passed in her robe of rain, and for the first time since
childhood the man hid his face and wept.
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