Many a woman has married with far less excuse that Christian
did--married for money or position, or in a cowardly yielding to family
persuasion, some one who she knew did not love her, or whom she did
not love, with the only sort of love which makes marriage sacred. What
agonies such women must have endured, if they had any spark of feminine
feeling left alive, they themselves know; and what Christian, far more
guiltless than they, also endured during the three minutes that she kept
Mrs. Ferguson waiting at the locked door, was a thing never to be spoken
of, but also never to be forgotten during the longest and happiest
lifetime. It was a warning that made her--even her--to the end of her
days, say to every young woman she knew, "Beware! Marry _for love_, or
never marry at all."
When she descended, every ray of color had gone out of her face--it was
white and passionless as stone; but she kissed the children all around,
gave a little present to Isabella, who had been her only bridesmaid,
shook hands and said a word or two of thanks to honest James Ferguson,
her "father" for the day, and then found herself driving through the
familiar streets--not alone. She never would be alone any more.
With a shudder, a sense of dread indescribable, she remembered this. All
her innocent, solitary, dreamy days quite over, her happiness vanished;
her regrets become a crime. The responsibility of being no longer her
own, but another's--bound fixedly and irrevocably by the most solemn
vow that can be given or taken, subject to no limitations provisions, or
exception while life remained. Oh, it was awful--awful!
She could have shrieked and leaped out of the carriage, to run wildly
anywhere--to the world's end--when she felt her hand taken, softly but
firmly.
"My dear, how cold you are! Let me make you warm if I can."
And then, in his own quiet, tender way, Dr. Grey wrapped her up in her
shawl and rolled a rug about her feet. She took no notice, submitted
passively, and neither spoke a word more till they had driven on for
two or three miles, into a country road leading to a village where
Avonsbridge people sometimes went for summer lodgings.
Christian knew it well. There, just before her father's death, he and
she had lived, for four delicious, miserable, momentous weeks. She had
never seen the place since, but now she recognized it--every tree, every
field, the very farm-house garden, once so bright, now lying deep in
snow. She began tremble in every limb.
"Why are we here? This is not our right road. Where are we going?"
"I did not mean to come this way, but we missed the train, and cannot
reach London tonight; so I thought we would post across country to
E____," naming a quiet cathedral town, "where you can rest, and go on
when or where you please. Will that do?"
"Oh yes."
"You are not dissatisfied? We could not help missing the train, you
see."
"Oh no."
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