French fiction -- Translations into English; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; Young men -- Fiction
And she talked for a long while in a sharp voice. I cannot reproduce the
brutal force of her language. She said that she was the slave of our
caprices, that she laughed when we told her to laugh, and that we turned
our backs upon her later when we met her. Who forced us to seek her, who
pushed us into her company in the darkness, that we should show so much
contempt for her in broad day? I had once paid her a visit--why did I
not want to see her now? Had I forgotten that she was a woman and as
such was entitled even to my protection? The weak should always be
protected and sheltered by the strong. Now that she was famished, I took
a cruel delight in telling her that I had nothing for her to eat. Now
that she was houseless, I gloried in telling her that I refused to give
her a refuge. Because she was miserable I deemed it incumbent upon me to
make her more miserable still, for the truth was that I could do so with
impunity. I was afraid of her. She recalled the past too vividly. I
wished to deny her very existence. I was, indeed, a man to be admired, a
man with a noble, generous heart.
She was silent for an instant. Then she resumed, with more energy:
"You came to me and I received you as my husband. Now you deny that I
have any rights. You lie. I have all the rights of a wife. You gave them
to me, and you cannot undo what is done. You are mine and I am yours.
You repudiate me and you are a coward!"
Laurence had opened the door. She hurled insults at me as she stood upon
the threshold, pale with anger. I leaped from the bed and caught her by
the arm.
"You can remain," I said. "You are like ice. Lie down, cover yourself
up, and get warm."
Will you believe, brothers, that I was weeping! It was not pity. The
tears flowed of themselves down my cheeks, though I felt only an immense
and vague sadness.
The girl's words had made a deep impression on me. Her argument, the
force of which, doubtless, escaped her, seemed to me just and true. I
realized so perfectly that she had her rights, that I could not have
driven her away without thinking myself the incarnation of injustice.
She was a woman still, and I could not treat her like a lifeless object
which contempt and abandonment cannot affect. Setting all else aside,
humanity demanded that I should help her. The pure and the guilty are
both liable to come to us, some winter night, to tell us that they are
cold, that they are hungry, that they have need of us. Alas! we often
receive the one and thrust the other into the gloomy and inhospitable
street!
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