French fiction -- Translations into English; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; Young men -- Fiction
Well, now I can be Didier. Marion, as sinful as the day he pardoned her,
is here. She needs the white robe of purity, a hand to guide her
wavering steps aright, to steady her in the narrow and difficult path
which leads to the happiness of innocence. Her pale face requires a pure
atmosphere to restore to it the glow of youthful health. What we wished
for in our sainted hallucinations I have found without searching for it.
Since Laurence has come to me, I wish to erase all the evil instincts of
her heart, to give it the healthful tone and freshness of mine. I will
be a priest for this poor wretch: I will lift her up, console and pardon
her.
Who knows, brothers, but that this is a supreme trial, an appointed
task, that God has sent me! Perhaps, it is His wish, in charging me with
a soul, to develop all the latent strength of mine. Perhaps, He has
reserved for me the office of the strong, and does not fear to entrust
me with the reformation of a human being. I will be worthy of His
choice.
CHAPTER IX
THE COURSE OF REFORMATION
I desire to make Laurence forget what she is, to deceive her in regard
to herself by the genuine friendship I show her. I speak to her only
with gentleness; my words are always grave and carefully chosen.
Whenever she utters any of the slang of the street, I feign not to hear
her. I inculcate the lessons of innocence, and treat her as a sister who
has need of instruction. I oppose a calm and thoughtful life to her
noisy life of the past. I pretend to ignore that this existence is not
hers; I endeavor to be so natural in the imposition that, in the end,
she will doubt that she ever lived otherwise.
Yesterday, in the street, a man insulted her. She was about to return
insult for insult. I did not give her time. I approached the man, who
was intoxicated, and caught him by the wrist, commanding him to respect
my wife.
"Your wife!" cried he, ironically. "I know all about such wives!"
Then, I shook him violently, repeating my order in a sterner tone. He
stammered out something and slunk away, begging pardon. Laurence
silently resumed my arm, apparently confused by the title of wife which
I had bestowed upon her.
I well know that too much austerity is not advisable. I do not hope for
a sudden return to good; I wish to manage a skilful and gradual
transition, which shall prevent her poor, sick eyes from being wounded
by the light. There lies the whole difficulty of the task.
I have noticed that such girls as Laurence, women before their time,
long keep the thoughtlessness and childishness of the infant. They are
wearied and would yet willingly play with the doll. A trifle amuses
them, makes them burst out laughing; they find again, unconsciously, the
astonishment and caressing babble of little girls of five. I have taken
advantage of this observation. I give Laurence gewgaws which make us
great friends for an hour.
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