French fiction -- Translations into English; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; Young men -- Fiction
Jacques, seated at the desk, was toiling away peacefully, a Code open
before him. The young woman I had met on the stairway was lying upon the
sofa, her eyes fixed on the ceiling, silent and grave.
Jacques half turned his chair; his face appeared to me in the full
light. It was still the same visage of other days, a superb and
indifferent visage; one read in it a strong will, made up of selfishness
and coldness. The man had become what the boy promised to be. Our former
comrade must be what the world calls a practical and serious person; he
has an aim: he wishes to be a counselor, a lawyer or a notary, and moves
onward towards his goal with all the power of his tranquillity. With
closed heart and calm flesh, he accepts this world without either thanks
or revolt. Jacques has an honest nature, a just mind; he will live
honorably, according to duty and custom; he will not weaken, because he
will not have to weaken; he will pass on, straight and firm, having
nothing either to hate or to love. In his clear and empty eyes, I do not
find the soul; upon his pale lips I do not see the blood of the heart.
In the presence of this quiet and smiling young man, bending over his
law books and extending to me his cool hand, I thought of myself,
brothers, of my poor being incessantly shaken by the fever of wishes and
regrets. I advance staggeringly; I have not to protect me Jacques'
imperturbable tranquillity, his silence of heart and of soul. I am all
flesh, all love; I feel myself profoundly vibrate at the least
sensation. Events lead me; I can neither conduct nor surmount them.
To-morrow, in my free life, if I should happen to wound the world, the
world will turn from me, because I obeyed my pride and my tenderness.
Jacques will be saluted, having followed the common route. I dare not
say aloud that virtue is a question of temperament; but, brothers, I
think all the same that the Jacqueses upon this earth are basely
virtuous, while the Claudes have the frightful misfortune of having in
them an eternal tempest, an immense desire for the good, which agitates
them and leads them beyond the judgment of the crowd.
The young woman had taken her glance from the ceiling and was looking at
me, with partially open lips and curious eyes. Her face had the
transparent whiteness of wax, with dull flushes on the cheeks; her pale
lips, her soft and brown eyelids gave to her visage the air of a sick
and resigned child. She was fifteen, and, at times, when she smiled, one
would have thought her scarcely twelve.
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