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There came the sound of the bell for luncheon, and he got up.... It was
a strange thing that anyone so diligent in evil as the old man had been,
should at the end of his life have turned coward and twitterer in the
way he had done. His last year on earth had been a terrible one, for, so
family tradition averred (and indeed the thing was attested), terror of
what was coming fastened on his flesh like a monstrous growth, and he
wrote no more in his diary of the sins that were so dear to him. He
practised pious and charitable deeds, restoring the monastery church, on
the altar of which he had often played dice. He endowed almshouses in
Rye. He bought great tomes of the works of Christian fathers, and of the
meditations of the Saints, and hour after hour he used to sit in the
library to study these under the tuition of a priest who resided in the
house, and ministered at the church, and no doubt it was then that he
destroyed or dispersed that great collection of magical and occult works
which he had brought together, for no vestige of them was now extant
here. He cut himself off from the pleasures of youth, he fasted and
prayed, in the hope of turning away the fate at which all his life he
had mocked, and it was said that when on his knees he attempted to
address the God whom he had rejected, no prayer or holy words would come
from his lips, but that he mumbled unspeakable and obscene blasphemies.
He seemed in fact, so it appeared to Colin, to have gone crazy, and
though he continued throughout that year in the full serenity of his
physical health, he let himself be the prey of his disordered and
terrified soul, turning and truckling, not in love but in abject fear of
the destiny he had chosen, to Him whose spirit he had defied. It was
firmly rooted in his head, that he would die on his seventieth birthday,
and that indeed (no doubt because he so firmly believed it) came to
pass, and in an appalling manner. For he gave a feast that night to his
tenants in honour of his birthday, and had risen to speak to them at the
end of supper, when he put out his arm, as if pushing away some
invisible presence, and shrieking “No, no!” fell forward, dead, across
the table. At that moment there came a blinding flash of lightning,
which certainly struck the hall, but those who were nearest to him said
that his seizure had preceded the flash, and that it and the roar of
thunder that followed were rather the endorsement of that judgment than
the judgment itself. That year, anyhow, thought Colin, was a common and
craven conclusion to his brilliant life; he did not fancy that he
himself would suffer so deplorable a collapse, legend or no legend. But
in the interval, he had more than all his ancestor’s lust for pleasure,
and his hatred of love....
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