England -- Fiction; Gay men -- Fiction; Italy -- Fiction; Paranormal fiction
“Why, that old Colin was a sort of prophet. I felt all the time as if he
was writing not about himself but about me. How types repeat themselves:
there is another character he mentions which so closely resembles
someone we both know. Old Colin’s father in fact, Ronald Stanier, whom
he describes as a drunken old sot. Good night, darling. Not a kiss? I
suppose I don’t deserve one. You’re punishing me for being such a
brute.”
She paused at the door. There he stood, looking gaily and yet wistfully
at her, with his mouth a little open, and the soft fire of his youth
burning in his eyes, and she yearned for him. Surely it was not only his
beauty that she adored, that physical perfection of him. There was
somebody, surely, imprisoned there, who called to her through the bars
of his nature and its love of evil and its hate of love. As often as she
had tried to reach that prisoner it was as if the guardians of his soul,
monstrous and terrifying, pushed her panic-stricken away. She hated and
feared them, and their ruthless wickedness, but in spite of them she
knew that she would never cease from trying to get past them, and
rescuing him who lay there in iron bondage.
She turned back into the room, her eyes troubled and eager, full of
love, full of fear. Some gust of inspiration came to her.
“Colin, you hate love,” she said, “and I can’t help giving it you. I
pity you so, you know; all my heart pours itself out round you in pity.
You’ve tried to kill my love, but you can’t. It’s so much stronger than
either you or me----”
He whipped round on her.
“Good Lord, you must have misheard me,” he said. “I asked you for a
kiss, not a sermon. But I don’t want either. Go to bed.”
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