Confession; Or, The Blind Heart. A Domestic StorySimms, William Gilmore
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Confession; Or, The Blind Heart. A Domestic Story
Simms, William Gilmore
Domestic fiction
And what of Julia Clifford? I have said but little of her for some
time past, but she has not been forgotten. Far from it. She was still
sufficiently the attraction that drew me to the dwelling of my
selfish uncle. In the three years that I had been at the mercantile
establishment, her progress, in mind and person, had been equally
ravishing and rapid. She was no more the child, but the blooming
girl--the delicate blossom swelling to the bud--the bud bursting into
the flower--but the bloom, and the beauty, and the innocence--the rich
tenderness, and the dewy sweet, still remained the same through all the
stages of her progress from the infant to the woman. Wealth, and the
arrogant example of those about her, had failed to change the naturally
true and pure simplicity of her character. She was not to be beguiled by
the one, nor misguided by the other, from the exquisite heart which was
still worthy of Eden. When I was admitted to the bar at twenty-one, she
was sixteen--the age in our southern country when a maiden looks her
loveliest. But I had scarcely felt the changes in the last three years
which had been going on in her. I beheld beauties added to beauties,
charms to charms; and she seemed every day to be the possessor of fresh
graces newly dropped from heaven; but there was no change. Increased
perfection does not imply change, nor does it suffer it.
It was my custom, as the condescending wish of my uncle expressed, that
I should take my Sunday dinner with his family. I complied with this
request, and it was no hard matter to do so. But it was a sense of
delight, not of duty, that made me comply; and, but for Julia, I feel
certain that I should never have darkened the doors, which opened to
admit me only through a sense of duty. But the attraction--scarcely
known to myself--drew me with singular punctuality; and I associated the
privilege which had been accorded me with another. I escorted the ladies
to church; sometimes, too, when the business of my employers permitted,
I spent an evening during the week with the family; and beholding Julia
I was not over-anxious to perceive the indifference with which I was
treated by all others.
But let me retrace my steps. I subdued my choler so far as to go, with a
tolerable appearance of calmness if not humility, to the interview which
my uncle had been pleased to solicit. I need not repeat in detail what
passed between us. It amounted simply to a supercilious offer, on his
part, of lodging and board, until I should be sufficiently independent
to open the oyster for myself. I thanked him with respect and civility,
but, to his surprise, declined to accept his offer.
“Why, what do you propose to do?” he demanded.
“Do what I have been doing for the three past years; work for myself,
and pay my board from the proceeds of my own labor.”
“What, you go back to the merchants, do you? You are wiser than I
thought. The law would not give you your bread here for twenty years in
this city.”
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