Confession; Or, The Blind Heart. A Domestic StorySimms, William Gilmore
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Confession; Or, The Blind Heart. A Domestic Story
Simms, William Gilmore
Domestic fiction
“You are either the most wilful or the most indifferent husband in
the world,” was his whispered remark to me as he bade me good night,
refusing to remain for supper.
I said something to my wife about tending Edgerton--seeing to his
wants--nursing him if he remained unwell, and so forth She looked at me
with a face of intense sadness, but made no reply.
“She is too happy for speech,” said my demon; “and such faces are easily
made for such an occasion.”
I went in to Edgerton after a brief space; I found him feeble,
complaining of chill. His hands felt feverish. I advised quiet and sent
off for a physician. I sat with him until the physician came, but I
observed that my presence seemed irksome to him. He answered me in
monosyllables only; his eyes, meanwhile, being averted, his countenance
that of one excessively weary and impatient for release. The physician
prescribed and left him, as I did myself. I thought he needed repose and
desired to be alone. To my great surprise he followed me in less than
half an hour into the supper-room, where he stubbornly sat out the
evening. He refused to take the physic prescribed for him and really
did not now appear to need it. His eyes were lighted up with unusual
animation, his cheeks had an improved color, and without engaging very
actively in the conversation, what he said was said with a degree of
spirit quite uncommon with him during the latter days of our intimacy.
Mr. Wharton spent the evening with us, and the ball of talk was chiefly
sustained by him and myself. My wife said little, nothing save when
spoken to, and wore a countenance of greater gravity than ever. It
seemed that Edgerton made some effort to avoid any particularity in
his manner, yet seldom did I turn my eyes without detecting his in keen
examination of my wife's countenance. At such times, his glance usually
fell to the ground, but toward the close of evening, he almost seemed to
despise observation, or--which was more probable--was not conscious of
it--for his gaze became fixed with a religious earnestness, which no
look of mine could possibly divert or unfix. He solicited my wife
to play on the guitar, but she declined, until requested by Mrs.
Porterfield, when she took up the instrument passively, and sung to it
one of those ordinary negro-songs which are now so shockingly popular.
I was surprised at this, for I well knew that she heartily detested the
taste and spirit in which such things were conceived. Under the tuition
of my demon, I immediately assumed this to be another proof of the
decline of her delicacy. And yet, though I did not think of this at the
time, she might have employed the coarse effusion simply as an antidote
against the predominance of a morbid sentimentalism. There is a moment
in the history of the heart's suffering, when the smallest utterance of
the lips, or movement of the form, or expression of the eye, is prompted
by some prevailing policy--some motive which the excited sensibilities
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