Conrad in Quest of His Youth: An Extravagance of Temperament — John Shaqi
Conrad in Quest of His Youth: An Extravagance of TemperamentMerrick, Leonard
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Conrad in Quest of His Youth: An Extravagance of Temperament
Merrick, Leonard
Theater -- Great Britain -- Fiction
Presently he sought the space where they had played. But the Field of
the Cloth of Gold was transformed. Where the dandelions had spread
their splendour for Mary he saw a market-garden, and the sun that had
made a halo for Mary glittered on glass. There was a quantity of
glass, there were consequential rows of it, all raising money for
somebody, all reminding the pilgrim that meadows move with the times.
"Well, I suppose it's progress," said Conrad, shaking his head. But he
missed the dandelions. He was a Conservative by instinct, though he
was a Liberal by reason.
When he loitered back to the view of Mowbray Lodge, a lady of the age
which it is gallant to call "uncertain" had come out on the veranda.
She had a little shawl over her shoulders, and in her hand she held a
pair of scissors with which she was clipping a palm. The placid gaze
she lifted to him was not discouraging, and advancing towards her with
a bow he said:--
"Pray forgive me for troubling you, but may I ask if Mr. Boultbee lives
here now?"
"N--no," answered the lady pensively, "no gentleman lives here. 'Mr.
Boultbee'? I'm afraid I don't know the name. Are you sure he is still
living in the town?"
"I am sure of nothing," replied Conrad. "It is so long since my last
visit that I am even doubtful if he is living at all."
She seemed to reflect again and said: "Perhaps they might be able to
tell you at the post-office."
"It really isn't important," he declared, "though I'm obliged by your
suggestion. To confess the truth, I am more drawn to the garden than
to Mr. Boultbee. Years ago I spent a summer here, and being in the
neighbourhood again I couldn't resist the temptation to come and dream
over the top rail of your gate."
"Oh--er--would you care to look round the place?" she murmured with a
tentative wave of the scissors.
"I should be charmed," said Conrad, "if I am not intruding."
"Of course you don't see it to advantage now. Last month--" She moved
across the lawn beside him, telling the falsehoods with which everybody
who has a garden always dejects a visitor. He affected that thirst for
knowledge with which everybody who is shown a garden always rewards a
host.
"It's a long time since you were here, I think you said?" she remarked,
pleased by his eagerness.
"It is," said Conrad, in his most Byronic manner, "just a quarter of a
century." The lady looked startled, and he continued with a sigh,
"Yes, I was then in that exquisitely happy period of life when we just
begin to know that we are happy; you may imagine what memories are
stirring in me:--
"'I can recall, nay, they are present still,
Parts of myself, the perfume of my mind,
Days that seem farther off than Homer's now
Ere yet the child had loudened to the boy' ...
That poem--Lowell's 'The Cathedral'--flashed into my mind as I came
upon your parish church awhile ago, and
"'gazed abashed,
Child of an age that lectures, not creates,'
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