England -- Social life and customs -- Fiction; Guardian and ward -- Fiction; Orphans -- Fiction
"Bless the child!" she exclaimed, "Daisy, what is the matter?" And she
looked confounded.
"Nothing," I replied.
"Then do not look beside yourself. Oh, Midge, Midge! how will it end?"
She pushed back my hair to look into my face with a rueful glance; but my
heart swam in a joy she could not check. Cornelius missed me, loved me,
and loved me as his friend!
"Oh! Kate," I said, "how kind of you to tell me all this!"
"Then make much of it, for it is all you shall hear from me. No; it is no
use kissing me, and looking pitiful. You are quite fond enough of him as
it is."
More I could not get out of her, either then or subsequently. For some
time the consciousness that Cornelius had missed me, sufficed me; but the
heart is craving; mine asked for more, and not obtaining what it asked
for, grew faint and weary. It sickened for the sight of his face, for the
sound of his voice, for his greeting in the morning, for his kiss at
night, for all it had lost and missed daily. It missed home too, the home
I had loved so much, with its cheerful rooms, its ivied porch, its green
garden and old trees, its sense, so sweet and pleasant, of happy liberty;
its studio, where I loved to linger. Another now enjoyed the shelter and
pleasantness of that home; the garden flowers yielded her their sweetest
fragrance, the trees their shade; she might sit with him in the studio,
alone and undisturbed, all the day long. I was ever haunted by these
thoughts; the cure of absence was but a slow one for me.
Three months passed away; the wedding was put off from week to week and
day to day, to the great vexation of Kate.
"It is not that I am in a hurry for it," she said to me, when I
questioned her on the subject, "but I do not like to see my poor brother
made a fool of. I am sure Miriam plays with him, as a cat with a mouse.
He can think of nothing else. He was not half so bad in the beginning;
but she has irritated him into a perfect fever. Ah well! I wish it may
not cool too much after marriage, that is all."
"I wish they were married," I said, sadly, "for then I might at least be
with you, and see him now and then."
Kate took both my hands in her own, and looked at me very earnestly.
"Midge," she said, "you are now thirteen; you are old enough to hear
sense, and to make up your mind as I have made up mine; think that when
Cornelius is married, he is, in one sense, lost to you as well as to me;
do not imagine that he will or can be the same again; do not come home
with an idea that old times can return; one who has proved it can tell
you, that there is no beginning over again old affections."
I looked at her wistfully, loath to believe in so hard a sentence.
"It is so," she resumed, sighing: "think of Cornelius as of a very dear
friend; love, respect him as much as you will, but expect nothing from
him; wean your heart; you must, for his sake, as much as for your own."
"Kate," I replied, "I shall try and not be jealous of his wife."
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