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that banished fear, and made you feel she would yet reach the port, and
weather many another storm. I also found in the ocean other aspects less
definite, but to me not less impressive,--the desolate and the bleak,
when the wide waters of a dull green hue rolled sluggishly along or
heavily beat the sandy beach, whilst fleecy clouds slowly passed over a
misty sky where grey melted into paler grey, giving that sense of vague
and melancholy infinite which can only be felt on the wild northern
shores.
I delighted in this wild and lonely life, and seldom felt the utter
solitude of my daily haunts. Sometimes indeed, when I chanced to meet in
the sand the mark of my own footprints, which no other steps had crossed
since I had passed there, which the wind alone would efface or the tide
wash away, a sense of sudden sadness came over me. It seemed as if a
friend, whom I never could meet or overtake, had made and left that track
for me to see. I felt vaguely that she who had passed there was not quite
the same who passed now. Only a few days perhaps had gone by: but of
those few days, unseen and unfelt as they speed on, is made up not only
the sum, but also the ceaseless change of this our earthly life.
Dearly as I have loved solitude, I hold it no unmixed good. Woe to the
communion with nature that is only a brooding over self, and not a
mingling of the soul with the Almighty Creator of all we behold; that
seeks in her loveliness none save the images of voluptuous indulgence,
and leaves by unread her purer teaching! Rightly even in innocent things
have we been warned to guard our senses and our hearts. For this I hold
ye dangerous, ye sheltered valleys, with quiet rivers gliding through,
with green woods and lovely paths leading we know not where, with
peaceful dwellings embosomed in the shade, and looking like so many
abodes of love and happiness. What though we know that the golden age was
all a fable and pastoral bliss the dream of poets, that innocence and
peace dwell not here, though here passion and satiety can penetrate as
surely as in the crowded city? Yet who, on beholding you, has not for a
moment wished to live and die on your quiet bosom? Who has not felt that
the thoughts you waken melt and subdue the heart, and haunt it vaguely
for many a day, and enervate it with longing dreams and desires that
savour too much of earth.
Not these the feelings which thou awakenest, thou austere sea,--austere
in thy very beauty, in thy calmest and most unruffled moods. More true
and honest are thy promises, which thou at least keepest faithfully,--the
long, arduous strife against wind and storm, the tardy return of
weatherbeaten mariners,--ay, and often too the wreck,--the wreck which
may appal the weak, but never yet dismayed a brave heart;--these are the
hopes thou holdest forth--these the promises which life, whom thou
imagest, will fulfil, until her waves, calm or troubled, rough or smooth,
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