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But when it came, it was neither mysterious nor wonderful. Cold with the
shock, she tried to wrench herself free from the hideous reality of the
thing; but he was holding her so tightly that she was powerless to move.
She gasped for breath to speak, but he pressed her to him more closely
than ever, and kissed her again and again.
When he finally released her, her breath was coming in painful sobs.
“What’s the matter?” he said thickly. “Don’t you like me any more?”
“I—I—you’ve been drinking!”
She tried to cover her face there in the dark, to hide the shattering of
her idol; but his hands caught hers and held them away so that he could
find her lips again. In all her sheltered life, Joy had never known what
it was to be afraid. But now she felt a chill, bewildering fear. She was
absolutely helpless. Something her father had once said, came back to
her as she gasped there in the darkness: “A girl should never be where
the situation does not protect her.” She was where the situation
protected her. All around there were others—within good hearing
distance.
“If you don’t let me go,” she panted, “I shall scream so that everyone
can hear——”
His grasp relaxed for a moment and she pulled herself free and ran away
from him through the darkness—down the way that they had come, past the
glowing cigarette ends, and gay little murmurs of conversation, until
she came to the door and light. There she did not stop to take breath,
but fled on up the stairs.
“Oh, there you are, Joy!” Tom was at the door, and hailed her as she
came into the gym. “Where have you been? Fixing your hair, I know. I
told you it’d come down that new way. Come on—this is the supper dance.
Say, what’s the matter? You look as if you’d seen a ghost.”
She laughed, and was appalled at the ease with which the laugh came to
her lips. “What time is it, Tom?”
“Oh, only a little after midnight.”
Only a little after midnight—and she had to dance and smile until
morning. She was exhausted. Her silver slippers were stabbing her feet
in long jabs which went quivering all through her body. And the sweet
singing in her heart had gone. Joy had had little experience with men,
the youths in Foxhollow Corners preferring to try their hand at more
willing material when amorously inclined. She had made of herself and
all she did a temple, kept for the Unknown God who would surely come
some day. And from almost the first moment, she had been sure that Jack
Barnett was The One. She had fitted the mantle of her dreams upon him,
and then he had turned and rent the mantle. She had not known men could
be like that.
As she danced with different men and smiled and talked automatically in
answer to their sallies, she found herself inspecting them with a new
and fearful curiosity. Were all men like that? The thought was
revolting, but could not be dismissed. Even in the days of chivalry,
when a maiden in distress was the first to be protected—even then there
was said to be but one Perfect Knight.
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