De L'Orme.: The Works of G. P. R. James, Esq., Vol. XVI. — John Shaqi
De L'Orme.: The Works of G. P. R. James, Esq., Vol. XVI.James, G. P. R. (George Payne Rainsford)
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De L'Orme.: The Works of G. P. R. James, Esq., Vol. XVI.
James, G. P. R. (George Payne Rainsford)
Fiction
This may seem a trifle; but I have learned by many a rude rebuff to
know, that there is no such thing as a trifle in this world. All is of
consequence--all may be of import. Helen's mountain walks sealed my
fate. At dinner I delivered the message and advice, with which the
chevalier had charged me; and after some discussion, it was determined
that it should be followed. My father at first opposed it, and
indignantly spurned at the idea of any one attempting injury to the
heir of Bigorre in his paternal dwelling; but my mother's anxiety
prevailed, backed by the advice and persuasions of good Father Francis
of Allurdi, who offered to accompany me for the short time that my
absence might be necessary. My father soon grew weary of making any
opposition; and it was agreed that myself, Father Francis, and
Houssaye, my valet, should take our departure for Spain within two
days, and, joining the chevalier at Saragossa, should remain there
till we received information that the Marquis de St. Brie had quitted
Bearn.
That day ended, and another began, and, springing from my bed with the
vigorous freshness that dwellers in cities never know, I took my gun,
and proceeded to the mountain, purposing to search the rocks for an
izzard. Gradually, however, I became thoughtful; and, revolving the
events just past, many a varied feeling rose in my mind; and I found
that one stirring and active day had changed me more than years of
what had gone before--that it was, in fact, my first day of manhood.
I had staked and won in the perilous game of mortal strife. I had shed
blood--I had passed the rubicon--I was a man. Onward! onward! onward!
was the cry of my heart. I felt that I could not--and I wished not
that I could--go back from that I was to that which I had been.
And yet there was a regret--a feeling of undefinable clinging to the
past--a sort of innate conviction that the peaceful, the quiet, the
tranquil, was left behind for ever; and even while I joyed in the
active and gay existence that Fancy and Hope spread out before me, I
looked back to the gone, and yielded it a sigh, for the calm
enjoyments that were lost for ever.
From these ideas, my mind easily turned to the latter part of that day
which formed the theme of my thoughts, and I could not help hoping,
nay, even believing, that the fainting of Helen Arnault was linked in
some degree with concern for me. I had remarked the blush and the
agitation when first I came; I had noted her behaviour on the kiss
which I had taken; and from the whole I gathered hope.
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