Dilemmas of Pride, (Vol 2 of 3)Loudon, Mrs. (Margracia)
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Dilemmas of Pride, (Vol 2 of 3)
Loudon, Mrs. (Margracia)
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Willoughby, more even than the rest of the world, was liable to being
flattered into the belief of what he wished; he very soon, therefore,
gave himself over to a passion which left him no longer master of any
one thought or feeling.
Geoffery's motives were such as we have already pointed out.
Unsuccessful courtships were at least time lost, while his being the
administering medium of flattery and flattering hopes kept up his own
influence.
Willoughby, when he wrote to his brother, which he did frequently and
kindly, thought there was a delicacy in refraining entirely from any
mention of Caroline, or of his own growing admiration; accordingly he
did not even allude to the subject.
Three or four letters had been severally received by Alfred, and opened
with excessive trepidation, dreading what they might contain; yet when
they were concluded and found not to contain even the name of Caroline,
the feeling of momentary relief was followed by one allied to
disappointment; one which was at least an access of the miserable
suspense, the restless craving to know something, even the worst, rather
than look any longer upon the desolate blank, which, without the
slightest variation, each weary day now presented. From the hour he had
quitted Cheltenham, and it was now some weeks, he had seemed to himself
a being cut off from the past, apart from the present, shut out from the
future. It was a state of mind no longer to be endured. Within about
half an hour after the receipt of Willoughby's last letter, though it
was then about ten o'clock at night, he set out for Cheltenham.
CHAPTER II.
Alfred arrived at Cheltenham at an early hour in the morning. On
repairing to Lady Arden's villa, however, he found that the family had
already gone to the walks.
That Caroline was probably there also was his first thought; his next,
that Willoughby perhaps at that very moment walked beside her as her
received lover. He certainly dreaded to behold realized the picture his
imagination had formed. Yet a strange restless feeling, a sort of
desperation, blended with a faint hope that he might be quite wrong,
impelled him to turn his footsteps towards Montpelier.
It chanced that the band which had paused for one of the usual
intervals, recommenced just at the moment. It would be utterly
impossible to describe the universal thrill which, on hearing the
well-known sounds, took possession of Alfred's whole frame, the rush of
associations, numerous, various, vivid, yet so cruelly contrasted with
his present feelings.
He wandered on, and entering what may be termed _the_ walk, beheld close
to him, but in the act of turning, Caroline and Lady Palliser, with
Willoughby in attendance. He had seen Caroline's countenance for one
moment, but none of the party had seen him. Their backs being now
towards him he followed within a few paces, endeavouring to summon
resolution for the necessary task of joining and speaking to them.
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