“That is very good of you,” she murmured; “and I appreciate your
generosity more than I can say. I know the prejudice you must have had
to overcome in regard to women physicians before you could bring
yourself to do this; and I know how you must have despised me for
failing in my attempt, and giving myself up to my feeble temperament.
But”—
“Oh, we won’t speak of all that,” he interrupted. “Of course I felt the
prejudice against women entering the profession which we all feel; it
was ridiculous and disgusting to me till I saw you. I won’t urge you
from any personal motive to accept my offer. But I know that if you do
you can realize all your hopes of usefulness; and I ask you to consider
that certainly. But you know the only way it could be done.”
She looked him in the eyes, with dismay in her growing intelligence.
“What—what do you mean?”
“I mean that I ask you to let me help you carry out your plan of life,
and to save all you have done, and all you have hoped, from waste—as
your husband. Think”—
She struggled to her feet as if he were opposing a palpable resistance,
so strongly she felt the pressure of his will. “It can’t be, Dr.
Mulbridge. Oh, it can’t, indeed! Let us go back; I wish to go back!”
But he had planted himself in her way, and blocked her advance, unless
she chose to make it a flight.
“I expected this,” he said, with a smile, as if her wild trepidation
interested him as an anticipated symptom. “The whole idea is new and
startling to you. But I know you won’t dismiss it abruptly, and I won’t
be discouraged.”
“Yes, yes, you must! I will not think of it! I can’t! I do dismiss it
at once. Let me go!”
“Then you really choose to be like the rest,—a thing of hysterical
impulses, without conscience or reason! I supposed the weakest woman
would be equal to an offer of marriage. And you had dreamt of being a
physician and useful!”
“I tell you,” she cried, half quelled by his derision, “that I have
found out that I am not fit for it,—that I am a failure and a disgrace;
and you had no right to expect me to be anything else.”
“You are no failure, and I had a right to expect anything of you after
the endurance and the discretion you have shown in the last three
weeks. Without your help I should have failed myself. You owe it to
other women to go on.”
“They must take care of themselves,” she said. “If my weakness throws
shame on them, they must bear it. I thank you for what you say. I
believe you mean it. But if I was of any use to you I didn’t know it.”
“It was probably inspiration, then,” he interrupted coolly. “Come, this
isn’t a thing to be frightened at. You’re not obliged to do what I say.
But I think you ought to hear me out. I haven’t spoken without serious
thought, and I didn’t suppose you would reject me without a reason.”
“Reason?” she repeated. “There is no reason in it.”
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