Dreamthorp : $b A book of essays written in the countrySmith, Alexander
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Dreamthorp : $b A book of essays written in the country
Smith, Alexander
Essays
Whitehall, to Porteous in the Grassmarket execrated by the mob. These
men are not dulled by disease, they are not delirious with fever; they
look death in the face, and what in these circumstances they say and do
has the strangest fascination for us.
What does the murderer think when his eyes are forever blinded by the
accursed nightcap? In what form did thought condense itself between
the gleam of the lifted axe and the rolling of King Charles's head in
the saw-dust? This kind of speculation may be morbid, but it is not
necessarily so. All extremes of human experience touch us; and we have
all the deepest personal interest in the experience of death. Out of
all we know about dying we strive to clutch something which may break
its solitariness, and relieve us by a touch of companionship.
To denude death of its terrible associations were a vain attempt. The
atmosphere is always cold around an iceberg. In the contemplation of
dying the spirit may not flinch, but pulse and heart, colour and
articulation, are always cowards. No philosophy will teach them
bravery in the stern presence. And yet there are considerations which
rob death of its ghastliness, and help to reconcile us to it. The
thoughtful happiness of a human being is complex, and in certain moved
moments, which, after they have gone, we can recognise to have been our
happiest, some subtle thought of death has been curiously intermixed.
And this subtle intermixture it is which gives the happy moment its
character--which makes the difference between the gladness of a child,
resident in mere animal health and impulse, and too volatile to be
remembered, and the serious joy of a man, which looks before and after,
and takes in both this world and the next. Speaking broadly, it may be
said that it is from some obscure recognition of the fact of death that
life draws its final sweetness. An obscure, haunting recognition, of
course; for if more than that, if the thought becomes palpable,
defined, and present, it swallows up everything. The howling of the
winter wind outside increases the warm satisfaction of a man in bed;
but this satisfaction is succeeded by quite another feeling when the
wind grows into a tempest, and threatens to blow the house down. And
this remote recognition of death may exist almost constantly in a man's
mind, and give to his life keener zest and relish. His lights may burn
the brighter for it, and his wines taste sweeter. For it is on the
tapestry or a dim ground that the figures come out in the boldest
relief and the brightest colour.
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