Drugs that enslave : $b The opium, morphine, chloral and hashisch habitsKane, H. H. (Harry Hubbell)
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Drugs that enslave : $b The opium, morphine, chloral and hashisch habits
Kane, H. H. (Harry Hubbell)
Drug addiction
head and exclaimed, ‘Oh, the mountains! the mountains!’ While I was
performing the various antics already alluded to, I knew very well I was
acting exceedingly foolishly, but could not control myself. I think it
was about eight o’clock when I began to have a feeling of numbness in my
limbs, also a sense of general uneasiness and unrest, and a fear lest I
had taken an overdose. I now constantly walked about the house; my skin,
to myself, was warm—in fact, my whole surface felt flushed; my mouth
and throat were very dry; my legs put on a strange, foreign feeling, as
though they were not a part of my body. I counted my pulse and found it
one hundred and twenty, quite full and strong. A foreboding, an undefined,
horrible fear, as of impending death, now commenced to creep over me;
in haste I sent for medical aid. The curious sensations in my limbs
increased. My legs felt as though they were waxen pillars beneath me. I
remember feeling them with my hand and finding them, as I thought, at
least, very firm, the muscles all in a state of tonic contraction. About
eight o’clock I began to have marked ‘spells’—periods when all connection
seemed to be severed between the external world and myself. I might be
said to have been unconscious during these times, in so far that I was
oblivious to all external objects, but on coming out of one it was not
a blank, dreamless void, upon which I looked back, a mere empty space,
but rather a period of active but aimless life. I do not think there was
any connected thought in them; they seemed simply wild reveries, without
any binding cord—each a mere chaos of disjointed ideas. The mind seemed
freed from its ordinary laws of association, so that it passed from idea
to idea, as it were, perfectly at random. The duration of these spells,
to me, was very great, although they really lasted but a few seconds to
a minute or two. Indeed, I now entirely lost my power of measuring time.
Seconds seemed hours; minutes seemed days; hours seemed infinite. Still I
was perfectly conscious during the intermissions between the paroxysms.
I would look at my watch, and then, after an hour or two, as I thought,
would look again, and find that scarcely five minutes had elapsed. I would
gaze at its face in deep disgust, the minute-hand seemingly motionless, as
though graven in the face itself; the laggard second-hand moving slowly,
so slowly it appeared a hopeless task to watch during its whole infinite
round of a minute, and always would I give it up in despair before the
sixty seconds had elapsed. Occasionally, when my mind was most lucid,
there was in it a sort of duplex action in regard to the duration of time.
I would think to myself, it has been so long since a certain event—an
hour, for example, since the doctor came; and then reason would say, no,
it has been only a few minutes; your thoughts or feelings are caused by
the hemp. Nevertheless, I was not able to shake off this sense of the
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