marriage, which I proposed on the score of her uncle's
implacable opposition. She steadily refused to yield to my
passionate entreaties, and we parted with threats and
upbraidings on my part, and contempt and defiance on hers. I
was, of course, banished from Elmsley, and soon afterwards,
for the purpose of saving myself from a threatened and
disgraceful exposure, of a nature needless now to detail, I
made a victim of that gentle and perfect Alice, who has almost
as much reason as Ellen herself to curse the day on which I
crossed her path. When I met the latter again, in London, some
time after my marriage, I began to use that power which
accident had given me. She had then found out that you were
not, as she had imagined, aware of the event which had so
fearfully blighted her peace. I then avowed myself the
possessor of her secret; and alternately as a friend and as a
foe--by devotion one while, and by threats another--I forced
her to endure my presence,--to tolerate the expression of a
passion, against which her heart revolted, but which she dared
not peremptorily repel. I employed every art which cunning can
devise to entangle and to bind her. In Mrs. Tracy's knowledge
of her secret, and violent enmity against her, I held an
engine which I skilfully turned to my purpose. I bound her by
an oath never to reveal to you the history of Julia's death.
She pronounced it; but even while she protested that she would
never marry you, she declared to me, with the accents of
intense passion, that though she had refused, she adored you,
and that she would rather die at your feet, than live by my
side.
"After betraying her feelings in a moment of extraordinary
agitation, she found herself almost involuntarily engaged to
you; she wrote to me, and threw herself on my mercy. My
feelings and my conduct, at that time, appear strange to
myself. I was excluded from her uncle's house, and that
intercourse with her, which was dearer to me than existence,
was interrupted and thwarted in every way. By one effort, one
great sacrifice, I regained her confidence, and re-established
myself in that forfeited intimacy, at the same time that I
bound her by fresh ties of fear and obligation. Perhaps I was
also touched by her terrible situation: but be that as it may,
I _allowed_ her to marry you; and by some concessions on my
own part to her inveterate enemy, that old woman,--whose
vindictive malice has ruined and undone us all,--I bought her
silence, and once more shielded Ellen from disgrace and
exposure.
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