England, My EnglandLawrence, D. H. (David Herbert)
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England, My England
Lawrence, D. H. (David Herbert)
England -- Social life and customs -- 20th century -- Fiction; Short stories, English
There she always felt secure, as if no one could see her, although as a
matter of fact she was exposed to the stare of everyone who passed
along under the churchyard wall. Nevertheless, once under the shadow of
the great looming church, among the graves, she felt immune from the
world, reserved within the thick churchyard wall as in another country.
Carefully she clipped the grass from the grave, and arranged the
pinky-white, small chrysanthemums in the tin cross. When this was done,
she took an empty jar from a neighbouring grave, brought water, and
carefully, most scrupulously sponged the marble headstone and the
coping-stone.
It gave her sincere satisfaction to do this. She felt in immediate
contact with the world of her mother. She took minute pains, went
through the park in a state bordering on pure happiness, as if in
performing this task she came into a subtle, intimate connexion with
her mother. For the life she followed here in the world was far less
real than the world of death she inherited from her mother.
The doctor’s house was just by the church. Fergusson, being a mere
hired assistant, was slave to the countryside. As he hurried now to
attend to the outpatients in the surgery, glancing across the graveyard
with his quick eye, he saw the girl at her task at the grave. She
seemed so intent and remote, it was like looking into another world.
Some mystical element was touched in him. He slowed down as he walked,
watching her as if spell-bound.
She lifted her eyes, feeling him looking. Their eyes met. And each
looked again at once, each feeling, in some way, found out by the
other. He lifted his cap and passed on down the road. There remained
distinct in his consciousness, like a vision, the memory of her face,
lifted from the tombstone in the churchyard, and looking at him with
slow, large, portentous eyes. It _was_ portentous, her face. It seemed
to mesmerise him. There was a heavy power in her eyes which laid hold
of his whole being, as if he had drunk some powerful drug. He had been
feeling weak and done before. Now the life came back into him, he felt
delivered from his own fretted, daily self.
He finished his duties at the surgery as quickly as might be, hastily
filling up the bottles of the waiting people with cheap drugs. Then, in
perpetual haste, he set off again to visit several cases in another
part of his round, before teatime. At all times he preferred to walk,
if he could, but particularly when he was not well. He fancied the
motion restored him.
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