Authors, English -- 20th century -- Biography; Blackwood, Algernon, 1869-1951
The effect upon the children--there were five of us--followed
naturally. My father, apart from incurring much public odium owing to
his official position, found himself, and us with him, cut off from the
amenities of the social life to which we were otherwise born. Ordinary
people, “worldly” as he called them, left us alone. A house where no
wine was served at dinner, where morning and evening prayers were
_de rigueur_, a guest even being asked to “lead in prayer” perhaps,
and where at any suitable moment you might be drawn aside and asked
“Have _you_ given your soul to Jesus?” was not an attractive house to
stay in. We were ostracized. The effect of such disabilities upon us
in later life was not considered, for it was hoped each and all of
us would consecrate ourselves to God. We were, thus, kept out of the
“world” in every possible sense and brought up, though with lavish
love and kindness, yet in the narrowest imaginable evangelical path
which scents danger in knowledge of any kind not positively helpful
to the soul. I, personally, at that time, regarded the temptations
of the world with a remote pity, and with a certainty that I should
never have the least difficulty in resisting them. Men who smoked and
drank and were immoral, who gambled, went to theatres and music-halls
and race-meetings, belonged to the submerged and unworthy portion of
mankind. I, in this respect at least, was of the elect, quite sure that
the weakness of their world could never stain me personally.
Yet I never shared the beliefs of my parents with anything like genuine
pleasure. I was _afraid_ they were true, not glad.
Without wholeheartedly sharing my father’s faith, however, his
religious and emotional temperament, with its imperious need of
believing _something_, he certainly bequeathed to me.... The
evangelical and revivalist movement, at any rate, was the dominant
influence in my boyhood’s years. People were sharply divided into souls
that were saved and those that were--not saved. Moody and Sankey, the
American Revivalists, stayed in our house.
I was particularly influenced in this direction by a group of young
’Varsity men who worked with Moody, and who were manly fellows, good
cricketers, like the Studd brothers, or Stanley Smith and Montague
Beauchamp, men who had rowed in their University boats, and who were
far removed from anything effeminate. Of course I thought that what
these men did could not be otherwise than fine and worth copying,
and I lost no time in attacking everyone I met and asking the most
impertinent questions about their souls and fallen natures. By some
lucky chance no one kicked me to death--probably because most of my
evangelizing work was done at home!
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