Authors, English -- 20th century -- Biography; Blackwood, Algernon, 1869-1951
The bed, thus, is vividly present in my memory. By contrast with it,
not quite so sharp, perhaps, and a pleasanter feeling associated
with it, another New York sleeping-place rises in the mind--a bench
in Central Park. Here, however, the humour of adventure softens the
picture, though at the time it did not soften the transverse iron arms
which made it impossible to stretch out in comfort. Nor is there any
touch of horror in it. Precise and detailed recollection fades. The
hoboes who shared it with me were companions, even comrades of a sort,
and one did not feel them necessarily criminal or degraded. They were
“on their uppers” much as I was, and far quicker than I was at the
trick of suddenly sitting upright when the night policeman’s tread
was coming our way. What thoughts they indulged in I had no means of
knowing, but I credited them with flitting backwards to a clean room
somewhere and a soft white bed, possibly to that ridiculous figure of
immense authority, a nurse, just as my own flashed back to a night
nursery in the Manor House, Crayford, Kent. That the seats I favoured
were near the Swings lent possibly another touch to the childhood’s
picture.
The memory, anyhow, is a sweeter one than that of the bed in East 19th
Street, if less sharply defined. The cool fresh air, the dew, the
stars, the smell of earth and leaves, were all of them clean, and no
price asked at dawn. Yet the two--the bed and the bench--are somehow
linked together in my mind, the one invariably calling up the other;
and, thanks to them probably, no bed bothers me now, lumpy or sloping
though it be, in train, hotel, or lodging. I have slept in strange
places since--high in the Caucasus, on the shores of the Black Sea, on
the Egyptian desert, on the banks of the Danube, in the Black Forest
and Hungary--but each time the effort to get comfortable brought back
the bed and the bench, and sleep soon followed to smother both.
The gas-brackets, similarly, rise vividly before my eyes, associated
with the pain, the weariness of hunger; not of true starvation, but
of weeks and months of under-nourishment, caused by one meal a day.
The relation between hunger and gas-brackets may seem remote. It was
on the latter, however, that we learned to fix the metal top which
made the flame spread in a circle round a light tin cooking-pot. We
boiled water for milkless tea in this way, cooked porridge, and when
porridge was not to be had we heated water with dried apples in it. I
remember the day we discovered that it was more economical to eat the
strips of dried apple first, then drink the hot water that made them
swell so comfortingly inside us. They proved more filling that way, the
false repletion lasted longer, the sense of bulk was more satisfying,
the gnawing ceased, and the results, if temporary, at least made it
possible to fall asleep.
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