There are other details of that sordid New York room which still retain their first disagreeable vividness, each with the ghost--a very sturdy ghost--of the emotion that printed it indelibly in the mind. These details are best mentioned, however, in their proper place and sequence. It should first be told how we came to be there. CHAPTER II We arrived in New York towards the end of October, coming straight from five months in the Canadian backwoods. Before that, to mention myself first, there had been a year in Canada, where, even before the age of twenty-one, I had made a living of sorts by teaching the violin, French, German, and shorthand. Showing no special talent for any profession in particular, and having no tastes that could be held to indicate a definite career, I had come to Canada three years before for a few weeks’ trip. My father, in an official capacity, had passes from Liverpool to Vancouver, and we crossed in the _Etruria_, a Cunarder which my mother had launched. He was much fêted and banqueted, and the C.P.R. bigwigs, from Lord Strathcona and Sir William van Horne downwards, showed him all attention, placing an observation car at his disposal. General James, the New York postmaster, gave a dinner in his honour at the Union League Club, where I made my first and last speech--consisting of nine words of horrified thanks for coupling “a chip of the old block,” as the proposer called me, with the “Chief of the British Postal Service.” A ludicrous wound to vanity helps it to stick in the mind--my father wore no braces, and I copied him, but--well, in his case no belt was necessary, whereas I was slim. It suddenly dawned on me, as I spluttered my brief words, that a line of white was showing between my waistcoat and the top of my trousers. The close of my speech was hurried, my bow was cautious; I was extremely relieved to sit down again. In the lovely autumn weather, we saw Canada at its best, and the trip decided my future. My father welcomed it as a happy solution. I came, therefore, to Toronto at the age of twenty, with £100 a year allowance, and a small capital to follow when I should have found some safe and profitable chance of starting life. With me came--in the order of their importance--a fiddle, the “Bhagavad Gita,” Shelley, “Sartor Resartus,” Berkeley’s “Dialogues,” Patanjali’s “Yoga Aphorisms,” de Quincey’s “Confessions,” and--a unique ignorance of life.... I served my first literary apprenticeship on the _Methodist Magazine_, a monthly periodical published in Toronto, and before that licked stamps in the back office of the Temperance and General Life Assurance Company, at nothing a week, but with the idea of learning the business, so that later I might bring out some English insurance company to Canada.