England -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction; Governesses -- Fiction; Young women -- Fiction
All these things tired me, and I sat rather dismally in the moonlight
looking out at the closed white lilies and the swaying branches of the
limes, until a text suddenly flashed into my mind, "As thy day, so
shall thy strength be." I lit my candle and opened my Bible, that I
might read over the words for myself. Yes, there they were shining
before my eyes, like "apples of gold in pictures of silver," refreshing
and comforting my worn-out spirits. Strength promised for the day, but
not beforehand, supplies of heavenly manna, not to be hoarded or put
by; the daily measure, daily gathered.
An old verse of Bishop Ken's came to my mind. Very quaint and rich in
wisdom it was:
"Does each day upon its wing
Its appointed burden bring?
Load it not besides with sorrow
That belongeth to the morrow.
When by God the heart is riven,
Strength is promised, strength is given:
But fore-date the day of woe,
And alone thou bear'st the blow."
When I had said this over to myself, I laid my head on the pillow and
slept soundly.
Mother and I had a nice little talk the next day. It was arranged that
I was to go over to Milnthorpe with Uncle Geoffrey, who was obliged to
return home somewhat hastily, in order to talk to Deborah and see what
furniture would be required for the rooms that were placed at our
disposal. As I was somewhat aghast at the amount of business entrusted
to my inexperienced hands, Allan volunteered to help me, as Carrie
could not be spared.
We were to stay two or three days, make all the arrangements that were
necessary, and then come back and prepare for the flitting. If Allan
were beside me, I felt that I could accomplish wonders; nevertheless, I
carried rather a harassed face into dear mother's dressing-room that
morning.
"Oh, Esther, how pale and tired you look!" were her first words as I
came toward her couch. "Poor child, we are making you a woman before
your time!" and her eyes filled with tears.
"I am seventeen," I returned, with an odd little choke in my voice, for
I could have cried with her readily at that moment. "That is quite a
great age, mother; I feel terribly old, I assure you."
"You are our dear, unselfish Esther," she returned, lovingly. Dear
soul, she always thought the best of us all, and my heart swelled how
proudly, and oh! how gratefully, when she told me in her sweet gentle
way what a comfort I was to her.
"You are so reliable, Esther," she went on, "that we all look to you as
though you were older. You must be Uncle Geoffrey's favorite, I think,
from the way he talks about you. Carrie is very sweet and good too, but
she is not so practical."
"Oh, mother, she is ever so much better than I!" I cried, for I could
not bear the least disparagement of my darling Carrie. "Think how
pretty she is, and how little she cares for dress and admiration. If I
were like that," I added, flushing a little over my words, "I'm afraid
I should be terribly vain."
Mother smiled a little at that.
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