Domestic fiction; New England -- Social life and customs -- Fiction
Even more than she dreaded the long suffering she dreaded the
helplessness and weariness of illness, and the dependence upon others
which it must involve. She shrank morbidly from the thought of becoming
a centre of painful interest to her friends and to the neighbourhood;
and she resolved to say nothing either of her suffering or her fears
while concealment was possible. So, during the first months of winter,
making an excuse of the cold, she stayed at home, and, when chance
visitors came to her, exhausted herself with efforts to seem well and
cheerful in their presence, and bore the long suffering of suspense
alone.
Alone? Well, she thought so for a time. She wrote herself down as "a
woman desolate and forsaken," and it went ill with her--but only for a
time. Even in her darkest moments she had never quite forgotten the
refuge to which she might betake herself, and she found it at last.
After a time light broke through the darkness, and she caught a
glimpse--not of the way--but of His face whose hand was leading her.
The way mattered little. He knew every step of it, and its ending and
the rest to which it led, and why should she fear?
It cannot be said that she no longer shrank from the thought of the
long, slow suffering that might be before her; but she could after this
leave it all with Him "who loved her and gave Himself for her," and who
would give her strength to bear His will.
When the sharpest winter weather was over, and the days began to grow
long, she fell into her old cheerful ways again. She busied herself
with her housework and her needlework, and went to church and to the
sewing-circle, as the man at the station had said. She saw her friends
more frequently; and the neighbours, seeing the sweet content on her
face, "guessed likely that she was having a good time all by herself up
there on the hill." And so she was; and neither friend nor neighbour
imagined that she had anything to conceal. Nor did Dr Everett himself,
until the day when he met Fidelia, and brought her home. Then he lost
no time in finding out all there was to know.
That morning, as he went slowly down the hill to his home, he more than
once repeated to himself the words he had spoken to Eunice,--
"I see no special cause for anxiety,"--but each time he added
gravely--"as yet." And then he lost himself in musing on the terrible
mystery of inherited disease and suffering, and only came back to Eunice
again when he caught sight of the bright face of Fidelia standing at his
own gate.
"Poor soul! Poor Eunice! So good and wise and lovely! What a fate is
to be feared for her! And yet I am not sure that her strong and
beautiful sister is so happy as she."
And Eunice was smiling a little over the words which the doctor had
tried to make so hopeful, scarcely taking from them the comfort which he
meant her to take.
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