Betrothal -- Fiction; England -- Social life and customs -- 20th century -- Fiction; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction
Yet the alliance was so inevitable. There were the twins, of course, but
they were obviously Nurse’s property. They were fat, greedy, red-crested
darlings, with mottled arms and legs, and mouths that were always half
open like baby thrushes. Laura and her mother were very fond of them,
though Laura’s attitude was prompted, I fear, by the glory of sharing a
responsibility with her mother, rather than by sisterly devotion, for
she was always persuasively protestant when Mrs. Valentine suggested a
visit to the nursery.
“My chick, we really _must_ go and play with Wilfred and James!”
“Oh, Mother! Ten minutes more! They’re quite happy. They don’t really
want us, you know. Oh, Mother, just another ten minutes! Because,
Mother—darling, dear Mother—in the inside of the very inside of your
heart, you would rather read to me, wouldn’t you?”
“What? Read to a whipper-snip like you, when the poor little twins—I
never _heard_ of such a thing!” And Mother’s knees would give way
suddenly and Laura, slipping to the floor, would be tickled till she
squealed. And when she had had her ten minutes, full measure, Mother
would recollect herself guiltily, and hurrying upstairs, be very, very
kind to Wilfred and to James. But Laura, in dutiful imitation, would yet
be glancing, ever and again, from Noah’s Ark and pat-ball, to watch the
beloved face, and wait for a stray smile; and when it came her way,
would whisper to herself in fierce, delicious exultation——
“But she’s _my_ mother most!”
You protest? You think such jealousy, such ecstasy, unchildlike and
fantastic? And if not impossible in such a baby, at least improbable and
rather distressing? And you don’t believe children are like that? I
can’t help it. You ought to be right, but you are not. Laura was ‘like
that.’ An unpleasant child? If you please. But her mother never thought
so. And if some premature instinct made her, young as she was, so proud
and jealous of her place in her mother’s heart, the instinct was, at
least, a sure one. For though many are to like her, and some to love,
never in all her life will she be first fiddle with any one again.
Moreover her golden age was coming to its end. Not suddenly, with a
hushed house and red eyelids and the definite, numbing ritual of
carriages and handkerchiefs and hothouse flowers: not in a black day
that would have yawned like a gulf between Then and Now, a cleavage,
definitely unbridgeable, on whose further brink Mother would move ever
more mistily, shrouded in hopeless glamour; but imperceptibly,
tenuously, in an ever lengthening spider-thread of hope deferred.
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