understand; you desire a tender love of God, with tears and sobs, and
that your intellect should accept the true faith. Then he: Yes, that
is so. And I: Pietro Pagolo, this last is necessary for salvation, but
’tis well also to have the former. You must force your intellect to
submit to the faith; I am sure you will soon find it needs no forcing,
and then tears will come, because you will be helped by confession,
communion, indulgences and the prayers of those around. Fear not, let
all your thoughts be concentrated on God, for does he not say: _fili,
præbe mihi cor tuum_. Give him your heart and leave the rest in his
hands. He replied: If that be sufficient, I do so; but is it? Adding:
Lord, I am thine, do with me what thou wilt, if only I am pleasing to
thee.... O Luca, you must have known I was lost when you heard I had
been seized. And I: You may believe I knew the danger; I prayed to God
for you and shed many tears. Then I said to myself, if Pagolo saw me
he would reprove me, and say that friendship should not be weak and
effeminate. He answered: You know full well that death has no sting
for me, for we must all die; but my Mother stands ever before me. Am
I not even to see my brothers? And I: Christ is your mother and your
brothers according to Scripture.... I have scant time, Luca, he said,
I should need to be for a month with the friars, then might I become
full of faith; but I trust that God will help me this night. Then he
asked for water to quench the thirst arising from the salt food, and
drinking with a good grace, he said: Luca, they put me eight times to
torture, and then I understood that I was lost: nevertheless, thanks
to God, I feel no spark of hatred against any citizen.... I asked him:
Shall we say a psalm? And he: Luca, I can only say paternosters and
_Ave Maria’s_; meaning that he knew no psalms by heart--and this he
said with sorrow. And I: That is the best prayer there is: say, if it
pleases you, a paternoster to yourself. And with great devotion he did
so.... Then to me: Read me the Creed of St. Athanasius; and when I had
found it, he said: It will be better I read it myself, and holding the
booklet between his handcuffs, he read about twelve verses with such
expression that all around cried.... Seeing me cry, he said: Luca, do
not do so, help me this little while, and when I am dead pray to God
for me. And I, restraining my tears as well as I could, said: I will;
and when you are among the Blessed, where I trust surely you will go,
remember me. He answered: I will, adding: What death are we to die? And
I: I know not. He said: God’s will be done, and then suddenly: Luca,
I have a fantastic wish to know when I spoke to you last before I was
taken? And I: It was on Friday evening about 24 o’clock, in the shop
of Pier Guicciardini, and Lorenzo Segni was there. I held your hand
awhile, desiring to accompany you to the Palace whither you were bound,
and you refused. About 2 I think you were taken. He answered: It was
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