Bildungsromans; Fathers and sons -- Fiction; First loves -- Fiction; Ireland -- Fiction
In spite of myself the words thrilled me with their vivid, menacing
suggestiveness, and I listened intently to what followed. It seemed
apparent that the end of the world was at hand. The signs were taken
up one by one, and it was shown, to my growing discomfiture, that all
had been fulfilled: nothing remained but the sounding of the last
trumpet, which, according to the preacher――he seemed even to regard
it as highly probable――might take place that very night. By the time
he had reached this point my disquietude had become abject fear, and
I joined fervently in the last prayer. But why had I never been told
of this imminent danger? When we got back from church, it was a very
subdued boy who sat by his father’s side, a Bible open on the parlour
table in front of him. I read with a feverish haste to prove my changed
way of life, and, it must be confessed, also to keep off as long as
possible the hour of bed-time. There was a horrible plausibility about
what I had heard. The concluding words kept ringing in my ears. “I see
no reason why it should not be this very night.” “Wouldn’t it, in fact,
be just the kind of thing that _would_ happen at night?” I asked myself
piteously; and I was tormented by a dread of the hideous trumpet note,
by a bloody moon, and by the apparition of dead and shrouded bodies,
rising up with glaring eyeballs and tied jaws and all the mouldering
signs of the grave――dreadful, galvanized corpses, risen from their
wormy beds to meet their Lord in the air. At length I could put off my
bed-time no longer. I could see my father was not convinced by the open
Bible, and, with his usual suspiciousness, had become curious as to
what passages I was so interested in. Ten minutes later, on my knees
in my small, candle-lit bedroom, I was lying to my God of a tremendous
love I had begun to feel for Him; but in spite of this I passed an
abominable night. In the morning I continued my miserable hypocrisy,
grovelling before this frightful Deity for Whom I had developed so
sudden and demonstrative an affection, and Whom, at the same time, I
begged naïvely not to come. Gradually, but not for several days, these
terrors faded, receiving their death-blow when my father told me that
all Jews must return to Jerusalem before the last day. Now there was a
Jewish family living at Castlewellan, whom I thought I could keep my
eye on, and as I had heard nothing of their moving I felt fairly safe.
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