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away and slowly returned, dragging one foot behind the other, only to
walk farther away next time. It was all over; nothing was left him now,
and so he went down the whole length of the boulevard and did not
return.
His was a melancholy progress through the streets. He walked slowly,
never changing his pace and simply keeping along the walls of the
houses.
His boot heels re-echoed, and he saw nothing but his shadow moving at
his side. As he neared each successive gaslight it grew taller and
immediately afterward diminished. But this lulled him and occupied him
mechanically. He never knew afterward where he had been; it seemed as
if he had dragged himself round and round in a circle for hours. One
reminiscence only was very distinctly retained by him. Without his
being able to explain how it came about he found himself with his face
pressed close against the gate at the end of the Passage des Panoramas
and his two hands grasping the bars. He did not shake them but, his
whole heart swelling with emotion, he simply tried to look into the
passage. But he could make nothing out clearly, for shadows flooded the
whole length of the deserted gallery, and the wind, blowing hard down
the Rue Saint-Marc, puffed in his face with the damp breath of a
cellar. For a time he tried doggedly to see into the place, and then,
awakening from his dream, he was filled with astonishment and asked
himself what he could possibly be seeking for at that hour and in that
position, for he had pressed against the railings so fiercely that they
had left their mark on his face. Then he went on tramp once more. He
was hopeless, and his heart was full of infinite sorrow, for he felt,
amid all those shadows, that he was evermore betrayed and alone.
Day broke at last. It was the murky dawn that follows winter nights and
looks so melancholy from muddy Paris pavements. Muffat had returned
into the wide streets, which were then in course of construction on
either side of the new opera house. Soaked by the rain and cut up by
cart wheels, the chalky soil had become a lake of liquid mire. But he
never looked to see where he was stepping and walked on and on,
slipping and regaining his footing as he went. The awakening of Paris,
with its gangs of sweepers and early workmen trooping to their
destinations, added to his troubles as day brightened. People stared at
him in surprise as he went by with scared look and soaked hat and muddy
clothes. For a long while he sought refuge against palings and among
scaffoldings, his desolate brain haunted by the single remaining
thought that he was very miserable.
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