Fräulein Schmidt and Mr. AnstrutherVon Arnim, Elizabeth
General
Fräulein Schmidt and Mr. Anstruther
Von Arnim, Elizabeth
British -- Germany -- Fiction; Epistolary fiction; Germany -- Fiction; Love stories; Young women -- Fiction
And yet you do not like Walt Whitman. I remember quite well my chill of
disappointment when you told me so. At first, hearing it, I thought I
must be wrong to like him, but thank heaven I soon got my balance again,
and presently was solaced by the reflection that it was at least as
likely you were wrong not to. You told me it was not poetry. That upset
me for a few days, and then I found I didn't care. I couldn't argue with
you on the spot and prove anything, because the only _esprit_ I have is
that tiresome _esprit d'escalier_, so brilliant when it is too late, so
constant in its habit of leaving its possessor in the dreadful
condition--or is it a place?--called the lurch; but, poetry or not, I
knew I must always love him. You, I suppose, have cultivated your taste
in regard to things of secondary importance to such a pitch of
sensitiveness that unless the outer shell is flawless you cannot, for
sheer intellectual discomfort, look at the wonders that often lie
within. I, who have not been educated, am so filled with elementary joy
when some one shows me the light in this world of many shadows that I do
not stop to consider what were the words he used while my eyes followed
his pointing finger. You see, I try to console myself for having an
unpruned intelligence. I know I am unpruned, and that at the most you
pruned people, all trim and trained from the first, do but bear with me
indulgently. But I must think with the apparatus I possess, and I think
at this moment that perhaps what you really most want is a prolonged
dose of Walt Whitman, a close study of him for several hours every day,
shut up with no other book, quite alone with him in an empty country
place. Listen to this--you shall listen:
O we can wait no longer,
We too take ship, O soul;
Joyous we too launch out on trackless seas,
Fearless for unknown shores on waves of ecstasy to sail,
Amid the wafting winds (thou pressing me to thee, I thee
to me, O soul).
Carolling free, singing our song of God,
Chanting our chant of pleasant exploration,
O my brave soul!
O farther, farther sail!
O daring joy, but safe! are they not all the seas of God?
O farther, farther sail I
Well, how do you feel now? Can any one, can you, can even you read that
without such a tingling in all your limbs, such a fresh rush of life and
energy through your whole body that you simply must jump up and, shaking
off the dreary nonsense that has been fooling you, turn your back on
diseased self-questionings and run straight out to work at your
salvation in the sun?
Yours sincerely,
ROSE-MARIE SCHMIDT.
XXXII
Jena, May 20th.
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