He finished revising the manuscript of his “Memories” in July, and then
went down, while the actual transference of his home took place, to the
Royal Yacht Squadron Castle, Cowes, where he had been accustomed to spend
some of the most enjoyable hours of his life. But this scene, habitually
thronged with people, and palpitating with gaiety, in the midst of which
Lord Redesdale found himself so singularly at home, was now, more than
perhaps any other haunt of the English sportsman, in complete eclipse.
The weather was lovely, but there were no yachts, no old chums, no
charming ladies. “It is very dull,” he wrote; “the sole inhabitant of
the Club besides myself was Lord Falkland, and now he is gone.” In these
conditions Lord Redesdale became suddenly conscious that the activity
of the last two or three years was over, that the aspect of his world
had changed, and that he was in danger of losing that hold upon life to
which he so resolutely clung. In conditions of this kind he always turned
to seek for something mentally “craggy,” as Byron said, and at Cowes he
wonderfully found the writings of Nietzsche. The result is described in
a remarkable letter to myself (July 28th, 1915), which I quote because it
marks the earliest stage in the composition of his last unfinished book:
“I have been trying to occupy myself with Nietzsche, on the
theory that there must be something great about a man who
exercised the immense influence that he did. But I confess I
am no convert to any of his various moods. Here and there I
find gems of thought, but one has to wade through a morass of
blue mud to get at them. Here is a capital saying of his which
may be new to you—in a letter to his friend Rohde he writes:
‘Eternally we need midwives in order to be delivered of our
thoughts.’ We cannot work in solitude. ‘Woe to us who lack the
sunlight of a friend’s presence.’
“How true that is! When I come down here, I think that with
so much time on my hands I shall be able to get through a
pile of work. Not a bit of it! I find it difficult even to
write a note. To me it is an imperative necessity to have the
sympathetic counsel of a friend.”
The letter continued with an impassioned appeal to his correspondent to
find some definite intellectual work for him to undertake. “You make me
dare, and that is much towards winning a game. You must sharpen my wits,
which are blunt enough just now.” In short, it was a cry from the island
of boredom to come over the water and administer first-aid.
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
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